~'Follow ur dreams and never give up' ^^

2010-10-16T11:35:00.002+08:00

all i wanted was an average after studying so hard. 3 tests and with 2 tests below average. its not like i din study. i did. and i studied hard. so wats the point anyway? why did i even overestimate myself to choose this kind of stupid course? at this point, besides saying fml, i dont know what else to say. sucks to be me. and seriously, FML.

2010-10-10T12:21:00.004+08:00

lies lies lies.

everyday i think i tell at least one lie. in fact, i get the feeling tt everyday i live in is a lie itself. holding on to the lie that 4 yrs in uni doing a good course will ensure i have good prospects in future. i guess no one will actually know if its true. but i guess if i paint a nice picture of my future, at least its a white lie that keeps me going everyday.

sometimes its really tiring to keep lying to hold on to smth. and i wonder, is it that important to keep things by my side?things tt i keep have a certain memory to it. but does it mean that if it is gone, i wont rmb any of the memories anymore? im sure that isnt true..

different ppl have different ways of thinking, and doing things. some ppl will do anything to make sure they dont lose the important things they have in life, be it friends, family, loved ones, ppl and things tt matter to them. some ppl learn to treasure while these important ppl and things are still with them. i believe in the second group.

there's no point clinging on to things. nothing is forever. no one will be able to stay beside me forever.. much as i dont want to think about it, thats life. death is inevitable, and so is the process of losing and gaining. i just dont want to spend too much effort on the things i have already lost, and neglect other opportunities i have. cos i know that even if i lose things and the ppl around me, the memories of them will never fade. sadly to say, not everyone around me thinks like that.

they do all that they can to make sure things never leave them. isnt it tiring? even when i look at them, i feel tired. but well, nothing i can do isnt it? if they dont realise it themselves, there's no way i can do anything to help them. i just feel its a pity. to be able to use their intelligence and intellect to think of and do anything to get what they want. wouldn it be so much more useful to use it on other things instead? im tired of thinking abt the possibility tt someone is scheming, or someone is lying to me. why cant things just be the way they appear?

human beings are born to be alone. thats what i believe in. nothing and nobody that one cant do without. of course, its always good to have someone around you. but that is a gift, a luxury. not smth to be taken for granted. and certainly, not smth that one can keep forever, and stubbornly refuse to let go.

but thats hard to do, i know. im learning too. letting go is not giving up. it is actually a process of taking a step back, and looking at how our previous actions have affected others. yes, human beings are born alone, but what each and every one of us does, will inevitably have an effect on at least one other person. cos we all live in the same place.

dont misplace the trust ppl have in you. if they listen to you, believe you, that is because they trust that you wont lie. but if one day, that trust is misplaced, it might just be gone forever. people wont be gullible forever. perhaps i have the ability to influence what others feel, and what others do. in fact, im sure i have. if i dont do anything now, it doesnt mean that i wont. one day i will run out of patience too. one day i might turn ugly too. one day i might end up like you too. and that will become a nightmare.

but im doing everything i can to curb that side of me. that, is determination. dont misuse tt word. cos i dont think you're fit to use it. i just hope one day u will learn to love yourself, and learn that the world does not revolve around you alone. its alright if you hurt me, but perhaps u failed to see, the person hurting most is not me. its the person u care about most. the person you've been trying to hold on to.

but well, if you're perfectly happy with whatever you are doing now, i wish u all the best. and good luck in achieving what you want. cos besides these, i really have nothing else to say to you.

2010-10-05T15:38:00.002+08:00

i cant believe its happening again. it happens like, once every month? how come there are people who pms more than me??

i hate it when i get the black face from people when i dont even know what i did wrong. its my life, the way i do things, and the way we are. does it concern others? no!!! even if it concerns him, i dont think he has a right to treat me like this. it really really sucks. and worse of all, i dont know how to solve it.

if this happens every month, by the end of 1 yr it would have happened 12 times. i seriously dont know how i am gg to put up with it. and i dont know how we are gg to put up with it. i know im getting on your nerves and you have to look at it from both sides. and you are being caught in the middle. i will try to ignore, but it is just so blatant. what did i do wrong???

f*** off. seriously. even my mum dont bother so much. why should he??? i dont know what i did to step on his toes. all i know is that. its affecting my mood. its affecting us. could you please, when u find a chance to, tell him all these? keep his attitude to himself. i dont want to be an area where he can vent his frustration. and i most certainly dont want to walk away cos i din do anything wrong at all! just dont push me into a corner cos i dont know what i will do. this sucks. big time. sucks to be me.

My third language of love - words

2010-10-02T22:18:00.003+08:00

i Remember when zhiyong asked me about what my 2 languages of love are. i told him service and time. i like to do things for ppl, and i also like to spend time with them. but i like to write too. so i guess, thats my third language of love. words come in 2 forms, to write, and to say. i prefer to write. in writing, most harsh words are reduced to subtle forms. when saying them out, i tend to be rasher.

6 months have passed pretty quickly. i can still rmb the days filled with confusion and sadness. when i used almost everything else to numb the pain. that was almost one year ago. i never did imagine things will turn out this way, and eventually it did.

but i guess life will never turn out to be a fairytale. everytime something will go wrong. although we quarrel more often on our differences, rather than over other people, that one inherent problem is still there. after all these time, i've come to realise that, things never end perfectly.

then what do i want? haven i already gotten what i want? but humans are greedy. we always want more. at times, you look over my shoulder and demand to know who am i smsing, what am i saying. i play around with you by refusing to let u know. but im perfectly okay with showing you. cos i have nothing to hide.

on the other hand, i cant say the same about you. to the extent that when i see your phone beep, i look away. now i wonder, why? once, i tried to be open about it. and when you saw that i was around, you put your phone down. something to hide perhaps?

what is wrong now? what is happening now? more troubles? hospital woes? family problems? i can wait. i will wait. the thing is, everyone's patience has a limit. i dont know when i will reach my limit. neither do i know how to bring it across to you. when it, and you, still matter to me, i want to let u know.

to me, it just feels weird. sometimes i wna be an ideal person and say that sure, you can always remain frens. but deep down inside, i wonder, is it what i really want? is it too much for me to ask that you slowly stop contact? cos from what i see, its still the same. the same long smses. im not too sure about the frequency, cos i've grown tired of glancing over. why am i doing tt anyway? since i have nothing to hide from you, shouldnt you too?

look at your message threads. whose is longer? perhaps mine is. but im sure the other isnt shorter by alot. im tired. tired of thinking about when this will end. how many more months do you need? another 6? 12? 24?...

i know you care about me. you spare a thought for me. you know it is unfair to me. knowing all this, and thinking, planning what to do next is a whole different thing. for you at least. 'its going to end soon' may i ask.. what is the 'it' referring to? the problem? or my patience limit?

sometimes before i sleep, this will come to mind. sometimes i tell myself to talk to you abt it, but i cant bring myself too. everytime i see you, i always feel very happy. but inevitably, when im alone, what bothers me deep inside starts to surface. i've learnt to compartmentalize. to not think about it when im with you. each day i bury it deeper and deeper. hopefully it wun surface so soon. but sometimes it still peeks out.

it hurts alot, to realise im hiding things from myself. not wanting to face it cos i dont know how to face it. i tell myself everything will be over soon, and i cling onto this belief. because i care, because i dont regret, i continue to do this. will you be the hero as you have always been, to pick me up from this mess?

With age, comes responsibility

2010-02-10T15:03:00.001+08:00

i dont know why my words are all highlighted in pink!! >.<

its been eons since i last updated. suddenly felt like writing something. and thats when i suddenly remembered i had a blog. im not even supposed to be typing anyway. IM SUPPOSED TO BE WRITING MY ESSAY!!!

nevermind. shall just vent my frustrations first. Guys often say girls are hard to understand, but i think guys themselves are harder to comprehend. some of them.

I dont understand what i did to offend him. Perhaps i did smth without realising it. But sometimes he's so nice and sometimes he's so hostile. I get the feeling im not worthy enough to be his friend. I only talk to him when he starts talking. it wasnt like this last time. we used to be able to talk about anything under the sun. and then sometimes he just shoots me down. i dont like the way things are becoming. yet i dont know how to make it better. and i guess im leaving it as it is.

its so ironic how a few months ago, i thought my life was perfect. i had great friends to study with, a nice and cosy family and im doing what i like. but reality sets in, and i realise that because of one fren, i dont really dare to mingle so much with the others now cos im afraid i will offend him further. i dont like being alone, but i dont mind not having anyone around me.

i miss NJ. there were always ppl to talk cock with. here things are just slightly more complicated. im getting mroe and more frustrated as days go by. and sometimes i find myself wondering, what will happen next sem?

it seems there's no one i can relate to. i dont know if im being too sensitive, i cant tell ppl who's with me everyday cos i really dont want to create tensions. neither can i tell others cos they dont really get what im saying. and everyday i just think to myself. oh what a sucky life. can things possibly get any worse? and guess what? the answer is yes:(

Time; arrows; bananas; flies

2009-05-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

Time flies like an arrow, fruit flies like a banana. Haha. I cant beleieve mroe than one week flew past. I dont think I have really done anything productive, but maybe i have. haha.

I am going for the Peranakan Ball! YESSSSS! The radio interview i heard on Wed was really funny. I cant wait to see the romance blossom between the leads, and also how the 3 actors act as aunties. But it's gona be super rush on that day. In the morn there's NJ's College day, and followed by NTU's Chemical Engineering Open House, and then this Ball. Now I understand why bees are happy animals even though they fly around all day. I guess I can relate to a happy bee(:

Cant believe NJ's 40 yrs old alr!! 4 years in NJ passed really quickly, and Im glad to say I definitely don't regret going to NJ. Every year we are forced to go to College Day even if we have exams.(becos an off-in-lieu is given after that. want it? come for college day. haha)But this time I feel quite excited. Going back not as an unwilling student, but as an excited graduate. wow. graduate sounds super old.

Im quite excited for the open house too. But still quite worried as to what it has in-stor for me. Becos i really want to go NUS, but what if im swayed by NTU? sigh. indecisiveness has set in again. Be still, my wondering mind.

I WANT TO GO FOR KUSHIN-BO AND SAKURA BUFFET. i have been saying this since i completed my As. time has passed yet i have not gone. sakura has closed down its outlet in toa payoh so now i gota go to yio chu kang stadium or shaw plaza. kushin bo's buffet has increased prices again. now it's above 20. i think it's 25 now. BUT I STILL WANT TO GO. i shall try to "teh" to my father once everyday. haha.

and there's USP's play. Im going too! Wow. i feel so intellectual(: i realise i keep saying what im gonna do. ok, shall spend some time(but not now) reminiscing. ooh. something impt is happening tmr.

MY DEAR GLADYS IS COMING TO VISIT. i have not seen her gfor abt 2 weeks and i really really miss her. i just hope she doesnt bawl out loud too much tmr=p

End of Hibernation!

2009-04-27T11:01:00.002+08:00

oh gosh. i realise that I have not posted for mroe than 1 yr!! i always said i'l tidy it up aft my As. there were so many things i wanted to do after my As. but.. haha. i dont think i did most of it.

But there's still alot of things i wna say! First, Congrats to Dai Yang Tian for winning the Best Newcomer award!! Wow. I think this is the first time I have ever been so excited during Singapore's Star Awards. It's like, there's smth to look forward to. But, why oh why was he not nominated for Top 10 Artists? Im quite certain he will get a place. Haha. Well there's always next yr:)

But many things will change isn it? Mb he'l cut an album, and decide that singing is his calling. One year may not be long, but it's enough. Within this short period, many changes took place. Somehow I always feel everyone around me is moving on, changing, but I am just staying put. "How to lose a date in 10 days" Heard of this? yeah. I have my own version. "How to lose a friend in 10 days" Haha. Okay, the fact that I am able to say it so lightly now is cos it happened some time ago, which gave me some grace period to get over this.

I am not afraid to say it out, nor am I afraid to let him know who he is. Cmon, it doesnt mean a guy and a girl can only be in a relationship right. That's sooo. Primary school. I just feel that friendship is more valuable than relationships, you know, those kind. So i was really quite upset when this friend just disappeared from my life. But then again, after much thinking, perhaps he was not my friend in the first place. Just an acquaintance. Sigh. WHat's the point of thinking so much when i cant do anything? Owell.

With this, I saw a different side of this society. I need something that I can hold on to, and Im glad to say that I do have them. Those quirky JC frens, family, the tomatoes from NY, and of cos those PCS ppl too. I guess time does play a part. The longer it lasts, the stronger it gets.

I learnt to appreciate myself, and the ppl around me. I guess I finally understood what's meant by "everyone's unique". What you have, I dont. But what I have, you dont! Haha. Actually there's nothing much to compare. There are different routes to take, but it doesnt mean there's a better route. It just means they have different priorities, and diferent takes on life. You might not agree with what i do, but i do it for a reason. An action cant please everyone, but at least it should please yourself(:

Im excited for Table of Glory! (: Will Jiajun win, or will Ah Wu beat him? But that's tmr la. haha. (:

2008-04-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

pw!!! today's pw results day!! haha. well. i really felt that all those hard work paid off. all the times when i feel like smashing my comp against the wall, and the times when i felt like giving up. suddenly i feel really really glad tt i din.

really must thank ms chen for everything. she's been a great help(: im so glad its over!!! haha.

good luck to all J1s!!! (:

meanwhile. i really need to focus. and i need to get this thing off my mind. shoo shoo!

2008-03-24T14:48:00.005+08:00

im gg online once a week. haha. does this sound pathetic?=p actually i kind of enjoy it. there's no "shit. i just wasted my time online" feeling. and this equates to feeling productive. haha!

mr cheng just told us what horrendous results we got for our math. sigh. wed's gona be a bad day. i can see those red crosses laughing at me>.<

anyway, last week's been short and i like it=p i mean the sch week. wouldnt it be nice if school only lasted 4 days=p

today we had a crisis at the physics lab. of all times, they chose to clear the sewage(i think) when we were having lab. i cant think of anything else that will emit such a terrible smell. haha.

soon everyone had their hands over the nose. those who din were suspected of having serious diarrhoea!

besides that school today was pretty mild. the school was quite empty today. due to enrichment week i guess. and i found out eugene's chinese name is jun kai! not xiao ming. dang. why do i have this horrible feeling that i just gopt cheated for 3 and a half months. haha.

thats makes him the 3rd jun kai i've known in my life! (:

ytd i did a pretty dumb thing. i went to touch a lighted bulb. which explains the plaster on my index finger. i cant even hold chopsticks! and i learnt to appreciate the power and ability of my index finger. haha.

the past weekend had been a chow down weekend. i had been eating non stop!! argh. haha. stop stop stop eating!

took a walk to balestier ytd. and i found my favourite tau sar piah store!! haha. but it was closed. shall go there one day after sch!

friday was the best. went to my long awaited PARISS INTERNATIONAL HIGH TEA BUFFET!!! haha. gosh. all the food! let me list: tempura prawns, spring rolls, satay, chicken wings, takoyaki, scallops, mushroom soup, herbal chicken soup, bee hoon, pandan chicken, sushi, char siew bao, siewmai, hargao, pizza. and 6 flavours of ice cream! rum raisin, mango, yam, strawberry, choc, vanilla. and gosh. the cakes!!! lime cheese, coffee cheese, choc cheese, passionfruit cheese, mango cheese, oreo cheese, choc mousse, strawberry mousse. and durain puffs!!!!! haha. totally pig out!!

2008-03-18T15:11:00.002+08:00

stupid math test. im so damn demoralised. i did nothing over the hols except math.

i was thinkin. this is it. alr term 2, so i should start studying real hard, cos As are in 6 months time. no more failures in class tests.

and so i studied. like mad. i actually finished the whole rev pack by sat. my gosh. and still. i only managed to complete one single qn out of 4 in today's test.

the rest? used the mtds i knew but couldn get answers. lost all my tests skills. time management sucks. couldn't show. lost confidence.

shit. im seriously screwing my J2 life. wats the use of studying if the results are the same as when i din study.

crap.

2008-03-16T15:15:00.002+08:00

sigh. hols are over. so fast!! longer hols please!! and this yr there's no enrichment week for us, no 1 extra week to catch up on work.

last yr's enrichment week was fun. all the food. haha. buffet and pastamania and pizza hut. this yr's only down to pizza hut! haha. so, not so sore abt no more enrichment week.

i rmb we had 3 weeks of enrichment in IP1. then 2 weeks in IP2. and 1 week in IP3. and zero in IP4. haha. descending order! cool.

monday was a free day for me this week. and i used it on face book!! damn waste time. i duno why i did it. but its so addictive! haha. all the chocs and KFC chicken i sent=p caught up on my sleep=D

Tuesday was a G^2 day!! haha. our 2nd official gm of the yr. haha. smth like that la. met up 1hr earlier, 1130, to get Pong's present. haha. luckily we did, cos we took a long time to decide. due to budget constraints. hehe. got her a happy 18th teddy and a frienship poster. and 2 slices of cake from secret recipe. its quality that counts la=p choc indulgence and tiramisu. delicious(:

chose tues too cos we could eat out half-priced waffles. haha. tried honey malt and jamaican choc. unless u are an alcohol and nuts dieheart, dont try the jamaican. not very nice>.<

did up some parts of our shirts. actually, just mine and marcus's shirts. and we looked like total idiots carrying our shirts arnd cos we had to wait for it to dry. it din help tt pong and sy were laughing at us. and also, its hard to hold the shirts properly when we were laughing at ourselves=p

decided to catch a movie. leap yrs! it was really much better than expected. quite worth the money. the girls all cired. and marcus was like "yall got cry ar?!" haha. some of us couldnt find tissue paper, while some just let the tears roll(:

in the midst of the movie...
pong: eh! how come the older guy don't have mole?

hehe.

smuggled chippy's cheese sausages and LJ fries into the cinema. yum(:

went for Ajisen ramen. i love the soup! haha. tried ton toro. but really couldnt get pong's "but they're so cute" out of my mind. so i guess i wun be eating these cute lil animals anymore!

we sat there for rather long. those beside us changed many times. but we're stll there. haha. i had fun(:

wednesday was a stay home day too. actually wanted to go for lunch with dad and mum. cos finally mum was on leave. but dad couldnt make it last min. there goes my jap buffet>.< haha. but i guess there's always a next time(:

went to AMK hub with mum instead. shopped arnd and ate my fill at the basement=p gosh the durian swiss roll and puffs are nice! haha. i love durian=p

mum did her version of cereal prawns for dinner. not bad for a first timer. haha. ate up the bits on the plate even tho it was rather spicy=p

Thursday! went for dinner at Shokudu Jap food bazaar. concept similar to marche and village. tried the unagi omalette and banana choc crepe. yum. quite nice. will be gg back there for more! (:

Friday. 2nd most fruitful day of the week. got to know interactors from other schools(: had amazing race and i really enjoyed myself along the way!! i literally laughed until my stomach ached. haha. i think the ppl in my group were great!! =) yang yan, wanlin, doris, nicholas, edward, jun ming. was mostly with them, and even tho i only knew some of them today, we all warmed up rather easily(: and there were 2 melissas in my group=p

Saturday. foster parenting! i like fp. the ppl there are quite nice, and easy to get along with. did quite alot of ushering and stuff, rather than playing with the children. lots of admin work.

today! met with a fierce monkey when i was coming home. stupid monkey. how dare you bare your teeth at me. hrumphf. tried the food at food addict! not bad(: the pizza came with 4 toppings, and i choose ham, chicken, mushroom and pineapples. added the set, so there was chicken soup and hot latte and dark choc cake. the cake was quite nice(: actually everyting quite nice(: shall go back to try more cakes and their hot chocolate! (:

and that, concludes my mar hols. let's hope june hols come quickly=p

2008-03-10T22:16:00.007+08:00

yes yes yes!! it's finally the hols!!! haha. got more time to catch up. i hope=p with both studies and with friends.

yup. and first, wna talk abt the kbox outing i had with S17! which was quite long ago. haha. last sat! 1 mar(:

went to cine's kbox. oh man. the service there not very good la. haha. i think toa payoh's one nicer=p or paradiz centre's. but it was fun, nevertheless. felt rather bad cos most of them were the ang moh pai. and majority of kbox's songs are chinese. mostly it was me, derek, suen li and ben singing. passed the mike to yun jie but she held it in front of me instead! hui shan sang occassionally. and cherry! haha. din noe she was luo zhi xiang's fan! =p

realised eunice, cherry and i have similar taste in guys. cos we all think the msian guy quite cute. and nat ho, alan, elvin ng. haha. that means i cant invite them to my wedding. if not it'l be a scene from a typical drama serial! haha.

'nuff said. now for pics! which i took from them=p

cant wait for tmr! haha. lotsa things lined up. and meanwhile im just wasting my time on facebook playing games and taking quizzes. haha. oh man. i shld start studying soon!!!!

2008-03-03T22:09:00.002+08:00

im seriously confused.

today i took part in smth that im not supposed to blog about. haha. anyway. i haven even studied for chem test. and econs test and i duno why im still sitting in front of the comp.

wanted to do smth but couldn. argh. so irritating. i haven talked to the person who changed cos of another for quite a long time. not planning to do so unless that person becomes friendlier.

its wrong. it's definitely against my principle!!! so stop stop stop. but its so difficult!!! there's no one who really understands my plight.

"doesnt matter de!"
its ok!"

no its not!! argh. nothing is gg as i thought it would be. how come things are so different from then and now. !!!!

sian. this is giving me a headache.

2008-02-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

wow. its been a long time since i last blogged. haha. terra outing. wow. that was like, 2 weeks ago.

anyway, this week passed super fast. it seemed only ytd that i went for foster parenting. when it was actually last week.

not much happened this week. just that we had our annual exchange of leftover CNY goodies. haha.

and i finally witnessed the work of kharma. duno if its spelt like this. i was laughing at how BX tripped last yr, and following that, i tripped when i was walking down the LT. SUPER EMBARRASSING!! haha. and ray shio even said i fell for the physics tcher. haha.

lesson learnt. i shall not laugh at how ppl trip unless i am certain i wont.

had lunch with sherfeng today. it really is a sign that we lead deprived lives. must meet up for lunch in school! haha.

went for FP last week. my volunteer tag scratched the kid's stomach when i was carrying her!! oh gosh. it was super scary. i really din know what i should do. luckily the parent was understanding enough.

you know, how some ppl u meet in life are so impactful that they cause you to change? yeah. i think its quite amazing that this is possible. the change is really great. and this change might not be neccessarily good. sometimes, when one aspect changes for the better, the others take a downwards turn. you just find it hard to talk to them. and its kinda sad. sigh. shant talk about this.

anyway. sometimes ppl really just have the ability to make you change. but i gona resist it. HAHA=p

2008-02-18T21:21:00.010+08:00

Terra outing was a great success!!!

haha. it was much better than last yr!!!! this yr's was a blast for me. many thanks to OG 17!!!! their attendance was fabulous. and they were super enthu. even though there were some aspects that weren't very beach friendly=p

captain's ball, ultimate frisbee. mostly thats what we played. then the sand got rather hot and the games ended with weiwen being dragged away, into the water. haha. i lost my bounce halfway la. damn sad. haha.

sat arnd for a while before joining suen li, derek, ben and yu hui in volleyball. derek, suen li and i were practically entertaining ourselves!! haha. whereas yu hui and ben were more aggresive.

most of the time the 3 of us watch the ball fly over and roll away. when we were supposed to hit it back. hehe. but we had fun anyway.

and we took plenty of pics. like plenty plenty. haha. all the jump shots and the coconut trees. i think i have the makings of a good photographer! hehe=p

group pic!

og 11

card players!

and now. floods of og 17!!

wow. i think this shot's quite nice=p

og17 havinf fun with sand

jump shots!

derek and the volleyball

the coconut trees!

haha. actually its just pics of suen li, ben, and me. coz we were really having fun with different poses. addicted=p

2008-02-15T18:06:00.004+08:00

TGIF!!!! haha. super happy. finally this week is over!

today passed rather quickly though. GP's getting more and more interesting. i guess everyone was right, i needed time to adapt(: and Mrs Tan specially went to take food for us. oh man. so touched! haha. i realised she's quite a cool mum.

anyway, Mr Chan was quite cute today. i was walking out of the lib after doin my gp test, and he saw me, and he waved to me with both his hands above his head. haha. can imagine? i cant find any pic. next time i shall demo=p i tot that was quite cute. very seldom tchers do tt! kudos to Mr Chan!

had a talk with BX and gloria. haven done this for quite some time. haha. i nearly cldn stop talking=p

and then talked to some in my OG. i hope alot are coming tmr! haha.

yun jie was being quite emo. awww. hais. smth that she said that jus wldn leave my head

"we only have 2 more days left as a class..."

oh man. really quite saddening. sigh.

went home to pig out again. i really should stop eating all the CNY goodies. it gives me a tummyache. even tho its once a year. even tho its super nice. even tho its running out soon. damn. all the excuses are coming out again=p

2008-02-14T22:38:00.004+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!! (:

the annual valentine's day is here again. haha. every yr we talk about how v day is not only for couples but for friends and classmates too. and family. haha. but its hard to get it into everyone's head=p

i keep wondering about brian and julianna. haha. wonder how those flowers look like. is it one big bouquet? or just one huge nicely packed flower? haha. this kept bx and me laughing during lect.

the exchanging of presents took place during assembly. apparently kevin shouted maktub 3 times but no one heard. haha. i dun think so la! he so loud. shout one time enuf liao. haha. must be mr menon bluff us=p

so, a great big thanks to:
sherfeng
ming han
marcus
wei wen
yaorong
sy
hui shan
bx
hj
aud
crystal
sf
bao
ly
fy
gloria
xc
andre

and many many more!! haha. it was a blast. too bad i still had lessons until 340. pe somemore. but not too bad la(:

last v day in NJ. sighhh. i wonder wat will happen next yr!

2008-02-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

sick!!!

pain pain, go away!! argh. i hate stomachaches and headaches. and both always come at the same time!!!

ytd was sore throat. it just came! argh. and i tot i managed to get past the MONSTER!!!

din even get past econs test. after pe it was really really painful. had to go home. bye $9.50. so damn ex la. shall try my best not to take taxi from now. haha.

thanks bingxin, audrey and andre. and i think i heard gloria. haha. and ms heng!! thanks for showering me with concern when the pain was really unbearable(:

off to get more sleep(:

2008-01-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

went to crash house session after the games talk today. haha. not that the talk wasn interesting. just tt house session seemed better.

they played movie charades. looked funny. haha. S17 GOT FULL MARKS!!!!!!!!! oh man. im so proud of them. and their lantern was super nice.

then Ben and CHaris and Eunice sabo=ed me into doing mass dance with WW. Ben's voice was the loudest. so i "treated" him the "best". then followed by charis. eunice ran away. haha.

i cut myself while whacking him. wahhh. so suay.

was trying to guess the drinks they bought. i cant believe i couldnt recognice honeydew! haha. and someone was lame enuf to tell me all my guesses were wrong even tho i got it at second try, cuz that lamer says i din say "with pearls" -.-lll

had a long talk with charis(: the whole thing was rather funny. haha. dun try KFC's cheezy shrimp pasta. not nice. no cheese at all. and its only pasta la. haha.

and dun go Bishan's LJS. the fries was totally disappointing>.< im so sad.

i think the fried kway teow and hokkien mee from chomp chomp is quite nice. esp when its delivered right to my face. haha. haven been to chomp chomp before! should go there someday(:

ytd went to MCYC to do admin work. while S17 was eating at thai noodle house>.< oh man. haha. nvm, there'l be a next time(: we were offered plenty of sweets, which included mint. ernest took one. then we told him the side effects. haha. his expression was kinda funny=p

yawn. im tired. shall go slp(:

2008-01-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

i realised my blog doesnt register titles. and i always spend so long thinking abt titles. now dun need liao. haha.

i just joined facebook. the email reminders kept flooding my inbox. figured it wouldnt hurt to join. haha. so many ppl are in!!! haha. i think im seriously outdated.

anyway, i saw this ad in the newspaper that the super delicious wife biscuit that i ate in HK is selling in spore!!! from 17 jan to 5 feb!!!! i want!!!! ahhhh. but where to find timeeee. oh no. its super delicious. oh dear. im thinkin of it again!!!

today was duh. all the lessons are making me sian. let me talk abt ytd instead. haha. went to try this Macau cafe at TP. quite ex, but the food not bad leh. haha. tried the pork chop noodle. the noodles quite nice. soft and springy. but the sauce. still ok la. not very special. the pork chop is rather tender. but my dad din like the seasonin. but im ok with it(:

next up was the fried prawn dumpling. not very nice. rather disappointing. don't try tt. haha. tried the pork belly rice with preserved veg and also the HK porridge. the rice was nice! the sauce was really flavoured, and went nicely with the rice. quite a nice combination(: the porridge was not bad too.

finished off the meal with yang zhi gan lu. ordinary. haha. but overall not bad la=D

Food addict cafe!

2008-01-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

i think i should start writting shorter paragraphs. haha. looks nicer. anyway, went shopping today. actually, i accompanied my mum to shop. haha.

but most of the time i end up buying more stuff than her. but this time she bought more. but im happy too(: cuz i got to eat my cheesecake!!

at food addict cafe!! super nice. a smaller slice and a smaller price. sounds good. so i decided to try. it's not too cheesy, and not too oreoy. haha. and not too filling. just nice for an afternoon snack!

i was deciding between durian mousse, chocolate truffle, or this. but it doesnt matter! haha. im gona go back and try out all their cakes!!!! and their main course(:

Prawn aglio olio

Ultimate 2

came home to check their blog out. turns out they had quite a few reviews. and boy. the food looked super good. plus plus, their chef was from NYDC! oh man.

Hot chix

Mudpie

shall ask G^2 to come. and the ogls too. both last yr and this yr. i wonder if my og wants to come too=p im sure yun jie wouldnt mind. its near her house=p

oh. on friday we took soooo long to get home!! so we decided! next outing's gona be near out house=p kbox! and im trying to influence them to go eat waffles too(: hehe.

updates!

2008-01-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

i duno why i am doing this when i still have tonnes of work to do. anyway, just came back from the first ever S17 initiated outing. actually we kinda initiated it for them. it was quite fun la. i guess ultimately it's the people who matter, not the place and what we do.

let's see. ppl who came were derek, suen li, shi hui, eunice, charis, huishan, cherry, thomas, benjamin, yu hui, yun jie, manuel, seoh ying and me. i hope i din miss anyone out! we made lanterns and watched this psycho show tt i dun really know what it was about. haha. ben brought twister but we were too intent on doing lanterns. haha.

went to huishan's house btw. her house is rather big. and her mum is super nice. treat us to so much food and dinner too. most of the time we were busy eating, playing cards, doing lantern, and suaning each other. think today my suan-able factor dropped alot. haha. din get suaned so much=p

was rather looking forward to the outing. really wasn paying attention in class. ms heng's magic din manage to work well! shall catch up over the weekend. just now there were some mentions of the O level results. i really hope everyone will be able to stay. i dun wna see S17 being disbanded>.< shall pray hard. S17's the best! =D

RESULTS day

2008-01-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

oh dear. super scared for my og. i really want all of them to stay. they're quite a sweet bunch. even though i always scold them and make fun of them. haha. even tho there are only 4 guys. actually, 3. eh, make that 2. but they all so enthu!

today's derek's bdae. sad day to have it, but i guess it gave him good luck. told them to sms me their results! thomas was the first, then ben. then the rest i sorta lost count cos it was quite saddening. some of them simply said cant go NJ. i really really hope national std dropped and all of S17 can stay!

yeah, but sometimes, it is only on when u realise that everything arnd you is not permanent, then will u appreciate. it's been almost 2 months, but inevitably, there are things that are different. i guess ppl in my pe class last yr will realise..

Pe just seems kinda different without Mr Loh. we always bullied him. but he always didn't mind. he listened to all our complaints and took them seriously even though we were also trying to stall for time. he always gave in to us, and always tried to provide an alternative viewpoint. even though he only taught us for less than half a yr, i guess he did make a difference in my life, just that i always took him for granted.

it really came as a shock when i received the news. and it took time to accept. still, it's kinda hard. i wonder if bingxin, bao, shufang all thought about it too. i guess, through this, we all gota learn to appreciate everyone, and everything around us.

Waffles!

2008-01-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

this is the first time in 2008 that i went to gelare. its been almost 2, 3 months since i last went there. i think its a really good idea for gelare to offer half priced waffles but maybe they should do it more often. haha. according to micro econs, waffles are not necessities la. so once they lower price, more ppl will buy, and they'll earn more. haha. but i think its highly impossible=p

had apple pie ice cream with waffle. the maple syrup was kinda non-existent. i should just stick to chocolate sauce instead. haha. the ice cream was nice though. pong had chocolate obsession, seoh ying had vanilla choc chip, marcus had cookies and cream and choc obsession, ww had low fat strawberry, mel and aud and yr also had choc obsession. proves that chocolate is still the most popular. proves im exclusive and unique. haha=p

i realised ww likes strawberry alot. and we have the same waffle eating pattern. we attack from outside to inside. so we finish off the crispy part first, then go to the ice cream. marcus and yr divide it into fours. the rest just attacked in no manner. haha. systematic ppl eat systematically(: but i do it that way cuz i dowan the ice cream to drip all over the plate and in the end the plate enjoy more of the ice cream than me ma.

besides waffle, i ate a tonne other things. haha. shared chippy's mars bars and calamari with G^2(: we kinda just share everything. G^2 rocks! haha. then we all agreed that the mars bars wasn very nice. the calamari was ok. calamari is just sotong right. why call until so high class ar. haha.

anyway, there was one last calamari/sotong left, then we kept pushing to each other. in the end harry potter and sy played scissors paper stone to decide. and they were also deciding if its winner or losere who eats. damn hilarious. cuz they even came up with the suggestion of flipping a coin to decide if winner or loser eat. haha. reminds me of what benjamin did. aiya. its just a calamari! just eat it!! haha. and pong and i were wondering, what if they finally decide, then me and pong just pop the calamari into our mouth. =p

we ordered the cheesy curry chicken too. and pong helped the paper bag apply face mask. haha. we joined the HAT in discussing for CNY, even tho what we did was to play handiplast and distract them. haha. but in the end we came up with the Fu family. quite hilarious. we should do this again(:

a day in the life of an ogl of S17

2008-01-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

S17 is filled with a bunch of interesting ppl. even if its simply half an hr with them, tonnes of things can happen.

the whole day went past w/o much hype. house session was.. owell. we're no longer J1s. gave out my muffins. gloria said its very nice. i think it's just that she's starving. haha. but after that we had a G^2 gathering. and that was good. oh man. if only we were all in the same class. but then again, if we were, we might never graduate=p and so we talked talked talked. and that's when i saw S17 in the canteen.

Decided to go over and chat with them. BADDDDD choice. first, suen li was there. thats the bad thing cuz she's the only nice person there. the other 2 were derek and benjamin. i tot they wldn be so bad. boy. was i wrong. everytime benjamin opens his mouth, the words that come out don't sound good. and it's all directed towards me. and derek either added in, or sat there and laughed.

more ppl came, but they kinda got influenced by benjamin. and then!!!! HE DROPPED AN ICE CUBE DOWN MY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the worst thing was that i simply ran after him after i got the ice cube out. and because it was melting, i just threw it at him. no hamr done. AT ALL. ugh. just you wait>.<

Holidays!

2007-12-01T21:39:00.001+08:00

wow. haha. i din noe ppl still came here. and plus, i was really quite lazy after promos=p its like, studying all year long and facing either the comp or the notes everyday, it was real tiring. and everytime relax abit, i'll feel quite guilty. finally, the yr end hols are here!! oh man. haha. going to HK nxt tues. cant wait!! so many things to do! eat, shop, visit all the historic buildings, and most importanly, stepping away from all the cca, ogl, school stuff for a while(:

many things happened in this period that i stopped updating, both sad and happy. all are part and parcel of life, and sometimes, learnt that things are meant to be accepted, and not to be changed. no point brooding over them, but most importantly, learn from what happened.

after one hectic school yr, i really start to appreciate relationships. both family, and also friends. without them, i guess school will be terribly boring. i disliked all the rushed studying we did this yr, but i really had fun with the people(:

and after saying so much, haha. i realised i haven really talked about what happened. but nvm, shall continue more tmr. meanwhile, to 2006/7 ogls: we are going to have outing soon!! on the request of xue lin=p

unlucky!!!!

2007-07-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

this must be one of my unluckiest day in history. i guess not only mine, but alot of those in my math class. we all din do very well except for a few. i spent sooo much time on math and it was all kinda wasted. D!!!

i've nv gotten a D for math b4. kinda disappointing. so many qns kept going through my head. did i study hard enuf? was my mtd wrong? did all my efforts go down the drain? argh. irritating!!!!!

and we just heard a bad news. we thought mr chee was kidding. i really really wished he said "haha. just joking la!" but he nv said it. i guess my fate is sealed. chien wei said smth like "the answers nv tally, the blanks are unfilled. common tests are scary, my fate is sealed"

from now on, math will be scary, but my fate is sealed>.<

and hai. so many probs. die die die. plus blogger is not showing my posts>.< argh!!!

what to do and what not to do

2007-07-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

this year's been pretty evenful. after today, another to add to my list. >.< just cause i wanted to utilise my concession pass, i decided to take 143 from jurong instead of taking mrt. in the end, half an hour into the bus ride, i was still in jurong>.<

if i took the mrt instead, i would have been somewhere near kallang>.< and one hour into the bus ride, i was only at pasir panjang. hai. in the end i got off at harbourfront and took mrt home. hai. if only i took mrt from the beginning i would've reached home long long ago.

lesson learnt: don't take bus when u can take mrt>.<

and dun take taxi when u can take bus and/or mrt.

and sometimes, there are stuff that are just meant to be kept deep down inside instead of saying it out. some things are also meant to be let go, instead of harping on it. some people are just not the friend material and some people's words are just not meant to be taken in just as it is said. some things just do not need to wait.

indifference can be a solution too. thats what i found out. and thats what i learnt.

stupid bug=(

2007-07-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

oh man. im sick. again!! its twice in a year! it mut be all those durian i took. then again, if its not for the common tests, my dad wun buy durian to celebrate them being over!! its all common tests' fault!! CTs die die die!!

i was stuck in bed for the last 2 days! i seemed like a slug. slush slush slush. moving around dragging my aching and scorching hot body along. and when i could finally eat, i felt like a pig. eating the liquid food and then sleeping and then eating again.

missed the s17-og19 bbq. shucks. i was quite looking forward to it>.<

missed the bag outing with ogls. shucks. we were gg to buy the bag! and got some prob. argh. i felt damn bad. and i was also looking forward to this trip! hai. this bug came at the wrong time>.<

Final choosing of bags!!

2007-06-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

haha. this is gona be the last time!!im planning to go and order by this sunday. so look kay(: haha.

Bag 1A: Zinc black bag with many pockets

Bag 1B: Same zinc bag but in brown colour(: no picture though

for bag 1, its $25! haha.

So far ppl choosin it are: Chien Wei, Audrey, Xue Lin, Charissa

Bag 2: Black Zinc bag with 2 pockets

This is also $25. but it's alil small for guys and it looks abit gay on them. haha. its chien wei's 2nc choice(:

Bag 3A: white puma bag

Bag 3B: same puma bag, but in black(:

Bag 3C: same puma bag, in brown

this bag is $20(:

this is christine's first choice, and its charissa, aud, xl's 2nd choice(:

SYF experience

2007-06-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

it's been such a long time since i've gone up on stage.. this is like the first time aft 5 years.. in primary school i was always preparing for dance performances.. but at tt time i din have any other committment, so tt wasn much of a prob.. aft 6 years in chinese dance, haha. i felt so sian, and decided to try smth new. and i've tried clubs and societies, sports. and in the end im back to the performance arts. haha.

but this time, after 5 years, its so different. mb its due to the organisation and management of cl, im not sure. i find tt it really takes up alot alot of my time. with all those tests and assignments, sometimes i really felt so tempted to just give up. all that time spent waiting and doing nth..

before the competition, when we were just having our normal rehearsals, we all di seem very nervous or anything.. even when we were doing the tech run, it felt.. normal. not at all nervous..

but once everything starts, wow. everything changes. we all become soo serious all of a sudden. and my heart just goes thumping non stop. just like that time. but luckily, there's so many people around me. and all of us just have a sudden urge to put in our ultimate best. right after our turn, we really felt we gave our all, and had really high expectations of ourselves.

but when the results came out, it was a real disappointment. we really din understand why we were given just a silver. were we really not as good as the others? and at that time we really din feel there was any point in gg back to compete in the finals.

eventually we got persuaded by our tcher.. and yup, we went back. even though it was like a competition, we din really feel the tension until it was really our turn. b4 that we were all saying, heck. dun care. just go there and take it as a rehearsal. but when it was our turn, suddenly everyone was saying, let's go up there and do our best, and show them that we deserve better than a silver.

and yup, we did do our best. we beat some other schools that got gold, gold with honours. and we got third, as well as best script. just that we felt the judging panel is quite self contradictory. with a silver, we managed to do better than the rest just cuz of a change in criteria. then does the prize really matter? does the recognition really matter? which one is mroe reliable? but well, i guess it really doesnt matter anymore.

oh yeah. haha. i saw shawn lee! he's quite shuai leh. not the very shuai that kind, but more of the normal shuai. not the idol kind la. yup. haha. there's really a difference btw NJ guys and AC guys. AC guys, anyhow grab one, also.. heh. u know. but i duno abt their character la. NJ guys character not bad la. haha.

but what really made me feel my efforts were worth it is the yechuan performance. when i saw the ogls, gloria, fang yu, and everyone down there, i really felt everything was worth it. overall, it was really a very fulfilling experience(:

that scary walk down PIE

2007-05-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

im like way behind here. my life here dates back to 24 may. haha. anyway, on tt day, i paid 2 bucks for an adventure.

we were supposed to be food helpers la. so we were serving ppl food, and also eating the food ourselves. haha. lunch was at science centre, and sf, bao and i had quite a fun time looking at the sovenirs in the gift shop. so many fun stuff there. and also overpriced stuff of cos. hehe. in between there was quite alot of time. so i went to take a walk around jurong entertainment centre. it sure brings back lots of memories. i still rmb last year on the 8th of aug, national day celebration day, i came here with the track ppl. shall talk abt this ltr. and then went to jurong point to walk around. brought back memories too. that was where we went for external hunt for this year's orientation>.<

dinner was at NUS, prince george's park residences. and wow. haha. the hostel so nice la!! and the food also quite nice la. heh. in the afternoon we had fried rice, fish in lemon sauce, chicken, fish fingers, veg. got dessert somemore. oh. do you know, when desserts are spelled backwards, its "STRESSED"? heh. and for dinner had nasi bryani, mutton, curry, tandoori chicken, prawns, fried dumplings. haha. not bad la.

yeah. that scary thing comes after this. so we walked to the bus stop to take the shuttle bus to clementi. and cuz we just missed the bus, so most prob must wait for arnd 30mins. in the end tse ruey got persuaded by her fren to walk. the moment they started walking, the bus came a few minutes ltr. wah, super suay!

when we reached clementi, we were deciding if we shld take cab cuz it was rather late. oh man. it was a mistake from the start. i shouldn even have joined them!! cuz zhitao and bao live in yishun. i live in toa payoh. from clementi to yishun so much faster! then nvm, so we went into PIE. and oh man, the stupid taxi driver din switch on his radio and din noe tt there was a major jam there since afternoon!! when we entered the PIE the meter was $3.10 and we barely moved but it jumped to nearly 9 bucks le! so we decided to get out of the taxi and walk along PIE. but the taxi driver keep trying to keep us in la! in the end we just sae no money, paid and got out.

aft walking a while, we climbed up and reached eng kong avenue. and we got directions to walk out to the main road, to bukit timah pri. finally. oh man. i reached home one hr then i would if i have taken the train>.<>

BAGS!!

2007-05-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

hey!! the Y3 bag no more le la. hai. so we cant get that one. but with that in mind, we can find the bag we want(:

we saw another bag at far east: newbie. did i spell it wrongly? anyway, its available in 2 colours, brown and black

and there's another one

so.. yeah. we'll be gg to see bags at bugis again, so hopefully we'll see if we can find a similar bag to y3. yup. check ur mail!!

The good, and the normal

2007-05-21T18:26:00.000+08:00

after living on this earth for so many years, i realise that now i have more friends than i ever had 10 years ago, when i was arnd 7 yrs old. when i was young, i always thought that only friends that i've known for a long long time can be considered as better friends. but i guess after this incident, it shows tt friends that i've known for a short time, can also show me the support that i need(:

i really really wna thank all these ppl who came down to watch the drama performance on friday.

all the time spent on those practices, staying back till 5 anticipating practice to start only to waste time there til 6 smth, and then staying to arnd 8pm.. all those saturdays spent on competition, and all the time spent on memorising the lines and stuff. all those effort i put in. i thought the turn out for the performance will be like last yr, almost full house, but one day before the performance, we realise that only 100 tickets have been sold. and the lt can sit 500 ppl! oh man.

and i was really feeling very upset. like, all my efforts gg to waste, so little ppl gg.. felt tt my morale reached an all time low.

in the end, thanks to all the supportive good friends and family members, we filled up about 3 quarters of the lt(: a great success!

and like i said, i wana thank these ppl:

gloria-for agreeing str away w/o hesistating
fangyu-for buying tickets from me evn though she could've bought from silvia, and coming down right after trng even tho she could've gone home
shi hao-for giving me support tho his class ppl not gg
xue lin-for bothering his friend just to ask if he can go, and agreein to come even tho he might end up sitting alone
jiayi-for coming even though she had tuition, and bothering her dad to fetch her back, and that she doesn really like chinese
christine-for coming down even tho she was quite sick, and dun really like chinese
audrey-for coming down right after dance, even tho she could have gone home when dance ended early
xue yuan-for coming tho i asked him last minute
sherman-for coming down even tho he din really wna come
vivien and theresa-for giving in to shan shan and guan ying's pleas and coming down tho they din really wanted to at first
wanteng-for offering to buy my tickets even tho she couldn come
bingxin-who actually wanted to come if not for floorball match
baoru-who actually also wanted to come if not for ms tan's farewell
jian hao-who wanted to come but had a friend's farewell, and still wished me good luck before the performance and asked me how was my performance after that
johnathan-who bothered to help me ask around to see who wanted to go
last but never the least,
mum and dad!!! thanks for giving me all ur support, esp dad, who in my memory, had never gone to the cinema for almost 10 years. and yet he comes for my performance!! (:

that performance would never have been a success if not for you guys!! you guys really made my day and i was really very touched when i saw yall down there. yall really boosted my morale and i really felt all my efforts were completely worth it.

through this, i can only say, a good friend in need is a good friend indeed. there are some things tt differentiate frens from good frens. and im really thankful for these ppl. of course, there were also some disappointment. like there were some ppl tt i really thought they will support me, but turns out, i guess i overestimated them. perhaps they had other reasons, but i guess if they dun tell me, perhaps i dun need to know. perhaps they are also good friends too, just that they had their difficulties. im not looking for the solid stuff, such as buying the tickets, but im looking more at whether they have the thought. but i guess for the time being, im satisfied that i have these people whom i can rely on.

thanks guys, i feel really blessed that i have you guys as my friends. <3 (:

sho rude.

2007-05-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

ever had this experience where ppl cut u off while talking? people look away when u look at them? ppl walk away when u walk towards them? ppl. ahh whatever. my point is. ever had this experience where u are talking online to a person and then that person goes OFFLINE? hmm. so rude. and never comes back on. more than once.

which is why i think i ought to get a courtesy award. i make it a point to tell ppl why i went offline. so nice and considerate of me right. yes i know=D

somehow, im writting this is a "i knew it!" feeling. lower expectations gives rise to higher satisfaction. how true. and then, no expectations give u no satisfaction. hmm. i wonder if charles dickens got low satisfaction for writting great expectations. hmm hmm.

no more tests!!!!

2007-05-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

yay!!! after 4 continous week of one test per week, the torture is finally over!!!! wah damn happy. haha. after math test, bao, sf, bx and me were all jumping for joy. haha. even tho we din noe how to do alot of the math. haha. think other ppl must be thinkin we so happy cuz we noe how to do. but actually no. hehe. super ultra happy! haha(: i had the sudden urge to throw away all my notes. i wonder how i will be like after As. haha. i wna go gold coast!!

and this is the first time in 4 weeks i think. tt i've posted. haha. i shall clog up blogger with all my posts(:

BAGS GALORE!!

2007-05-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

BAGS!!! as i promised, all the pictures of the bags are here. haha. come and see k. then choose one. hopefully by the start of term 3 we can all be AA and bring this bag together. hehe(:

bag 1: ink -- arnd 30 bucks

bag 2: ink -- arnd 30 also. from same shop(:

bag 3: ink -- also arnd 30, from same shop

bag 5: puma, 26 bucks, but no more stock.haha. just put for fun. hehe.

bag 5: one of our top 2 choices!! choice no 2!! the one we are getting is black. unless yall dun mind white(: its 24 bucks. quite cheap eh(:

bag 6: top choice!!! no brand la. its Y3. nv hear b4. who heard before? haha. but its quite ex. 30 bucks if we get 20 pieces, 36 if we get 10 pieces.

你有为在乎的人努力过吗?

2007-04-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes some people just care about themselves.. we might think they are selfish, self-centred. but sometimes, it might be because they don't know how it feels to care for others.

每个人都想让自己得到最好的。但当你尝试过为在乎的人而努力，那种感觉比当自己得到想要的东西的感觉更好。你再也不会想让自己得到最好，而是让他得到最好。为他努力，心里就会有一种莫名的成就感，也增加了多一份喜悦。

i think this is so meaningful. so right, once these so-called self-centred people understands how it feels like to care for others, they wun want to care only about themselves anymore(:

and here's another one:

对学生，通宵温书最辛苦。对成人，工作忙到没时间休息最辛苦。但最辛苦的，其时实是当你再也不能控制自己的感情。没有什么事比喜欢上一个人更辛苦。暗恋时，只能偷偷地看这他，什么都不能为他做。当他有困难你又帮不上忙，只能束手无策地看着他自己面对。那种痛，真辛苦。

i din noe idol dramas can come up with so many meaningful stuff. haha. i think it really makes sense. hai. life's full of meaning. saddd meaning.

haha. time for pictures.

little story

2007-04-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

i heard this on 933 ystd..

"A philosopher thought all he needed in life was philosophy. Until one day, this lady came up to him and asked him if he can consider marrying her. He never thought about this before, and told the lady to give him some time to consider.

And so, he started thinkin, should he accept this? But all along he thought his life would only revolve around philosophy. Isn he happy enough now? He wasn even sure if he liked her enough to want to marry her.

Eventually, he decided that between married life and single life, he has already experienced single life, so he should venture into something he has never experienced before. So, he went to find the girl. Her father answered the dooor, and told him she wasn in.

He told her father to tell the lady that he has decided to marry her. But he said, oh, so you're that guy. You're 10 years late. She is already a mother of 2 kids"

For the next few years, he spent the time regretting not making the decision faster, and wasted away these few years, thinkin about smth that cannot be undone. at his death bed, he said, in life, one should nv hesitate, nor regret, as time and tide wait for no man"

rather interesting story. the girl was smart enough to find another guy. haha. important lesson to learn. but i dun really agree with the man. sometimes, its because you dun hesitate, which is why you live to regret. if i hadn done what i did, perhaps things wouldn end up like this.

i duno why im talking about this anyway. if a bee is attracted to a flower, when the flower moves, will the bee follow? yeah. i guess most prob, cuz wherever the flower goes, the bee follows. they are always together. the ferns will never be found with the bee. i guess the bee simply isn interested in green, boring ferns.
oh. i found this rather interesting blog lately. quite funny, and i realise i keep gg to read it. i wonder who comes to my blog often. or mb no one comes at all? mb my posts are super boring such that only i come? haha. i wonder if there's any software which tells me who comes. not just the IP address, but specifically who. but i dun think there is. mb i can invent one. hehe. then i will make big bucks($.$) =D

time for pictures(:

haha. its not tt ur comp resolution isn good. this pic is blurred=p taken at the food court at cine

taken at pastamania at cine

ogls at KAP

OGLs at house session, in sec sch uniforms(:

wu zun!!!

不犹豫，不后悔

now

2007-04-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

now, im feeling like an idiot. silly, stupid, dumb, non-sensical. is tt how u spell it? argh. i cant even get my spellng right. does everyone get this feeling too? or isit just me?>.<

sometimes small things in life brings joy to our otherwise boring life. and when others out there are enjoying these small things in life, im just waiting for them to come, but to no avail=/

thus, i decide i shall just continue feeling like an idiot. silly, stupid, dumb, non-sensical. this is like a circular post. im gg back to where i started. i guess this just proves my point>.<

hai. i think im gg bonkers. and i can alr imagine BX agreeing with me. nvm. time for pictures!

farewell bbq for S17

At cine with this live advertisement for the green tea ice cream with pearls

CNY picture-1,2,3,4,5!

at KAP with ogls

wu zun playing pool!

that sine curve

2007-03-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

I just realised, life is just like a sine curve. that very first point in life is always at the origin. sadd. haha. which one of us din come into this world crying? and then there were times where we will be very upset, and feel there's nohing left to anticioate about life, but there are also times where we will be very happy and excited, and feel that for once, life is fair.

this must be the after-effect. at the top of the sine curve, suddenly, its like nothing's gg terribly wrong, and that actually there's no need to worry about anything. of cos, that is if i put aside those failed tests. regardless of whether we're upset or happy, life still goes on. so why not just get on smiling? (:

anyway, the four of us taking pcme occasionally talks about how old we feel. we're almost 17! where did all those time go to? when we were young, all we wanted to do was to grow up. in pri school, we wanted to be teenagers. when we were in sec school, we wanted to watch nc16 movies and play pool. now tt im 16, haha. i prefer watching G movies. like ice age and the incredibles. so far those nc shows tt i watched weren't very nice.

and looking back at those pri sch graduation photos, i realised there were some things in pri sch i did which were soooo childish. haha. and now, when we meet each other again, that kind of pri school feeling is no longer there.. its now replaced by a "i still rmb last time in pri sch u did..." that kind of nonstalgia feeling. mb i shld ask them to organise a pri school reunion soon. haha.

been watching idol dramas lately. even though the more i watch, the more i feel its just a show and that these things will nv happen in real life, i gota admit, there's a point made in these shows that do happen in real life. that is, the people that left you a bad impression at first, are most likely to be the ones that will leave you the deepest impression for the rest of your life. i realised this really applies to me..

certain ppl that really pissed me off in the beginning, are noe ppl who can decided if im gg to be at the top, or the bottom of my sine curve. haha. like the ogls. i rmb there was one day where i was really feeling terribly bad, aft someone totally spoilt my day. and they were all staying around to comfort me. and when i finally looked up, i saw xue lin's spastic face and i just burst out laughin. haha.

ok. enough of words. im gona infest this entry with some nice pictures = wu zun's pics(: and a few others la. haha.

at Island Creamery with the octopus clique and sherman

in school celebrating the jan babies birthday

neoprint taken with cho kwan, sherman, shi kai and xue lin at heeren on the day of dance party of orientation 2 picture taken at sherman's house during CNY

wu zun!!

That satisfying fullness(:

2007-03-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

i think i really maxed out my calories for the entire month in one single day. haha. For almost a month, my brother and i planned to go for the Delifrance breakfast buffet. but we never got to go cos i dun really like croissants, and i din really think it was worth it to just go there and eat croissants..

then one day my dad brought back these croissants from The Central, this new shopping mall in Clarke Quay.. the croissants were so nice! especially when it was heated up! hot and crispy, and it was so flaky. it just breaks up in your mouth(: and leaves that buttery, fragrant after taste in your mouth!

so i decided that maybe this breakfast buffet isn a bad idea after all(:

but it is only from 745 to 1045, so we had to wake up early. haha. but when we reached the delifrance branch in bishan, there were only like, 5 trays of croissants. and all of them were only 1/4 filled. din look appetising at all. so we decided to go elsewhere. and when we walked out, we saw cafe cartel! so we went to look at the menu(:

looks interesting enough, so we went in to take a seat. the seats very comfy leh. haha. we ordered the ultimate breakfast. it consisted of pancakes, french toast, sausages, bacon, scrambled eggs, and a muffin. and we also shared a waffle with ice cream.

wah. damn nice!! the pancakes were so fluffly, and the maple syrup was so thick and gooey. the scrambled eggs were made to perfection!! and the sausages' taste were just nice. the bacon also not very fatty, and the muffins were warm and soft! the free flow of bread were also freshly toasted, soft on the inside, crispy on the outside(: the waffle was not as nice as gelare's one, but also not bad(:

after that we went to walk arnd. haha. my brother's been so generous lately. first he buys me a cd, then he buys me ben and jerry's strawberry cheesecake ice cream. and then now he buys me sweets and chocs and anything i want. feels weird. haha. and after that he still queued up for 15mins at this famous chicken rice stall to but chicken rice for our lunch.

haha. hopefully he stays this way!

明天会更好

9 days and counting

2007-03-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i actually manage to do what i promised. i thought it would be so difficult.. indeed it is.. but i still managed to hold on for so long. quite a good start i guess.

they are already becoming more and more obvious. i really dun understand why i wasn able to see this before i decided to be so rash. sometimes i really regret my decision. i shldn have said. i should've just waited. then mb now i wun have to do all these silly stuff.

what i have given out, i just cant take it back.

enough of sad stuff.

on tuesday went to eat gelare waffles with the ogls! oh man. haha. the waffles were so nice!!! then before that we went to chippy to have lunch. DUN EAT THE FISH. the chicken is sooooo much nicer. the fish is sooo full of four. and i felt like puking after eating it. have the chicken instead. or the cheese sausage. both are 100% nicer!! haha.

oh. but i haven tried the fried mars bars and calamari. next time shall try(: the waflles were really superb. so crispy and even when it was soaked in ice cream, it was moist, but nevertheless, still quite crispy! on its own already very nice(: maybe i'll try one without ice cream. haha. which reminds me. shi kai din order with ice cream, and when the person served him, he said "your waffle, sir" and they heard as "loser". haha. and they just kept laughing cuz they sae the waiter is laughing at him for being the only one who ordered waffle without ice cream=p

mb we'll be going once every two tuesdays. so exciting. haha. just realised that everytime we go out, we go out to eat and talk cock. till now, there's so many things we have yet to do together and we only have around half a year left together! >.<>

付出去的感情，就像泼出去的水，永远也收不回来

the end of a chapter

2007-03-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

today is the day of the posting results, which decides if ppl stay of leave.. and it also means the end of the first 3 months, and also the end of all the fun..

these 3 months had been fun, and im glad to have known s17.. even thought their class is rather clique-ish,when they come together to do things as a class, they're quite bonded! like ytd, they all got together to start the fire, to cook the food, and to clean up aft that. there was theresa, who started the fire for the first time in her life; santhiya, who helped us with the stove; maisha, who provides the venue; isabel, who served drinks to everyone.. and alot alot more!!

SPECIAL MENTION: haha. jian hao and johnathan showed us what the guys were made of. at the end, when we were supposed to clean up, they went "KNS la. so dirty" and they complain and complain. but in the end they cleared up everything. damn nice right!!! haha

ivana, theresa, seoh ying and me were cooking the chicken wings and singing at the top of our voices. haha. thenivana still sae we look like housewives=p ooh. and befoer the bbq, we tot buffalo wings mean wings tt dun belong to chicken. then while they were saying, i was wondering, buffalo got wings meh? haha. turns out its a common term given to the mid joint of the wing=p hehe.

ivana and me also started splashin each other with water. and shermin got pushed into the water by sherman and vivien. haha. quite fun la.

i never thought it would hurt so much to let go. when she told me about the both of them, in front of her, i had to act as though the news came as a pleasant shock and that it was quite an exciting piece of news, when actually it hurts. im tired of putting on an act, im tired of running away. but just when i decide to stop doing it, things just dun go the way i expected it to be..

somehow, i think they know quite alot of things alr.. but mb im just being oversensitive. in any case, does it even matter at all?

like i said before, its my life, but somehow i dun get to make the decisions...

sweeet

2007-03-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

i think wu zun is so sweet!

he's s nice to ella in hana kimi!! he piggybaback her when she sprained her ankle, and even told her he likes her. tho she din hear=p and when she had nightmare, he accompanied her till she fell asleep.. damn nice!! =) but i guess this kind of stuff onli happen in idol dramas la. where got such case where the girl like the guy and the guy like her back>.<

today i did smth for the first time in this week. just walk and dun even think abt anything at all. it felt good(: guess this whole week i've been thinking way too much. i shall just sit back and anticipate the mar hols(:

where's my direction?

2007-02-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

i feel quite sian lately. i see no point in doing tutorials. i see no point in studying. i duno wats wrong with me.

been spacing out quite often. haix.

shant talk abt that now. anyway, CNY just came and went like this. bx and i were couting down to CNY and suddenly its over alr>.< ate like a pig during this period. haha. and went to sherman's house on tuesday.. first time i go fren's house during CNY=p haha. met at orchard before gg his house, cuz they wanted to have lunch.. then we celebrated audrey's birthday by buying her a cake(: then went to sherman's house.. xue lin played the piano for us! haha. damn nice. sherman also. and his mum prepared chocolate fondue for us somemore. so nice right.

ytd went to watch protege with S17. just realised its nc16. no wonder got all those scenes. anyway, before this show i already dun really like smoking and drug abuse. now see this show le, im TERRIFIED of it. if given a choice, i wun want to watch this show. gory. terrifying. argh.

they always sae im easily stressed out. now even this kind of small thing i also stress out. which explains the sian-ness. the "want-to-but-dont-want-to" feeling. is this really stress? when some things go this way, perhaps its really for the best? its my life but most of the times, i just don't get to make the decisions.

专属天使

2007-02-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

i like this song.. its the song for hana kimi.. some parts are really sweet(:

专属天使
近在咫弛
没人能了解我的心情
我没那个胆量
去接近你
只能默默地看着你离去

Chinese New Year

2007-02-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

haha. now can see my posts le(: yay. these few days had been busy with visiting. anyway, happy chinese new year to all!! its the year of the pig!! we can all officially sleep and eat and roll in the mud=D

ate tonnes and tonnes of pineapple tarts, bak gua, kueh bankit, kueh bulu.. and lots of other stuff. i think i just gained back ALL the weight i lost over the hols. haix. and mb gained some extra weight too>.<

today went for ogl outing. go sherman's house.. before tt we met at orchard. actually our aim was to eat the half-priced waffles at Gelare.. but in the end nv eat.. for lunch we went to the cha chan ting. the chicken chop cheese baked rice quite nice(: then jiayi and i tried to do a disappearing act to go buy audrey's bdae cake. but got found out>.< haha. but in the end we sae go toilet, then went to Han's to buy choc truffle cake. damn nice(:

went sherman's house aft tt.. his house mansionette leh. is tt how u spell? and he so rich la. go all the countries collect poker cards. and the goodies also from italy one. every year go overseas at least once. so good>.< and his mum specially prepared choc fondue for us! damn nice leh(:

even though we went out since 11am.. it felt so short.. with them, time always passes super fast. i miss the days where we stayed back to practise the walk in. even though we had to stay back late, it was always enjoyable. if only i can turn back time.. hard to imagine how life will be like without them>.<

im forever spacing out these days.. somehow i think its her. the way they are always together, the way she asked about that present.. its just my intuition. and their dispaly is just so similar. perhaps that explains the reply. but that doesn prevent me from spacing out. wat if its true? there's nothign i can do anyway. argh. wake up!!! there's tonnes of things to do!! no time to space out!! >.<

wats wrong?

2007-02-19T16:29:00.000+08:00

ahhh. cant seem to see my posts. wat went wrong?! test test.

valentines' day 2007

2007-02-15T17:32:00.000+08:00

happy valentines' day everyone! haha. even though the greeting came kinda late.. its the thought that counts right(:

been super busy.. went for talentime with s17 on 2 feb.. b4 that went for dinner with shermin, ivana and vivien.. quite alot of people from s17 turned up, and it was like a mini class gathering.. and it was quite an enjoyable evening(:

really glad that i got to know s17 through orientation.. feeling rather nonstalgic.. can still rmb so clearly how me, bx, fy and aud were considering if we should even be an ogl or enjoy orientation.. if i hadn applied, cant imagine how life will be like. most prob i'll still be stuck in the situation that i was like last yr. last yr was quite a horrible year for me.. finding out things i wld rather have not known, but also got to know the meaning of true friends. i guess there'a always gains and losses in life..

thats how i thought life would be.. until i met the ogls. still rmb how screwed up our first meeting was. i really regretted submittin the form aft that first meeting, and i din even feel like gg for future gatherings. but luckily i did(: dec 2006 was a really memorable time for me, cuz i got to know the best people ever.. it was only till then that i realised what was called "life took a turn for the better"..

being around the ogls made me feel at ease, that i really belong. i really cant imagine life without them around next year. we went through so much together.. people who din even see each other, and dun even recall meeing each other come together and put in so much effort to make the walk in a success. this kind of experience is really once in a lifetime.. thanks so much to all the ogls. esp that group of you(:

and besides them, being the ogl of s17 really brought alot of joy into my life. i have never ever felt so fulfilled in my whole life before. they really taught me the meaning of fun. at first i still thougth they were sian, bt in a short period of 3 days, they completely changed that impression. i think now im closer to them than my class.. and the things they once said to me are really heartwarming. still rmb vivien saying "outings wun be fun without u" aww. haha. my heart just melted.

which explains why i was willing to spend so much of my time preparing their vday present instead of studying and doing hw. haha.

and this valentines' day, is one day i'll never ever forget. i wun have any regrets(:

IRRITATING!!

2007-01-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

argh. today was supposed to be a happy day la. cuz lessons end super early. but but but. some stupid teacher had to go spoil everything.

i was supposed to have lunch with s17 outside. cuz they have 3 free periods and i end school early. then i passed them their chocs and cards, and everyone was happy la. then we slowly made our way out. they sae wana go some place near, no need take bus. so we went to the coffeeshop behind our school.

suay man. we met 2 teachers. one was the DV club teacher. he was nice la. he din sae anything. but it was the other teacher la. must go find out who he is la. so wad lor. he asked for my name, class and ct. and he completely spoiled our mood la. he din even let us finish our lunch. grr.

super no mood. how com he can go out eat we cannot?!? wad is this la. ant he just close one eye? or just give light warning la. like "next time dun do this again ok?" low EQ. grrr. super pissed off and irrtated.rawr.

eating feast=D

2007-01-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

today supposed to have cip briefing in the morning. but duno wat happened to it. cuz nth was discussed. haha. today pe we ran 8 rounds. and while running we sang, and cheered. haha. quite fun leh.

aft skol had to go toa payoh town council to get the list of needy ppl from them living in 1 room flats. cho kwan, xue lin, shi kai and me went.. then the uncle there sae town coucil dun have the info. must go CDC. in toa payoh central. so we had to take bus there. b4 that both cho kwan and i went to buy waffle. quite nice(: haha. the person give alot of chocolate!! but xue lin sae gelare waffle nicer. haha. so much more ex of course nicer la! he sae nest time tuesday we go. cuz on tuesday its only 3 bucks(: so off we went. and guess what. CDC was under renovation. so we completely din noe what to do la. in the end we decided that we'll just call them up. and we'll improve on our proposal. so guess where we went? haha. went to the food court beneath HDB hub to eat. we ate quite alot la. but its 4 ppl share. we ordered fried rice, rojak and fried dumplings. the fired rice was nice la!! full of flavour. but mb cuz all of us were hungry. hehe. the rojak was nice too. lotsa peanut and prawn paste!! yum. then the fried dumplings were hot and crispy! ooh. haha. my saliva dripping liao=p

haha. yup. thats abt all for today(:

ogl outing! =)

2007-01-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

ystd reached home at 1130.. super late la. haven really reached home so late from outing before. just slept like a pig la=p haha. then went out at arnd 1130 am.. meeting the terra ogls at cine yoshinoya. i tot i was late la. in the end when i reached only christine, han and jiayi were there. then a while ltr xue lin came.. we went to kobanyashi to eat. the noodle omelette very nice! haha. jiayi and i still felt hungry. but we decided not to eat anymore. haha. there may be nicer food on the way.

sherman, audrey, cass and mel joined us soon aft.. then rachel joined us for a while cuz she was setting up a stall at the flea market.. han was nice today=D haha. cuz he said he'll treat us to ice cream! =) yay. we actually wanted to have ice cream at the restaurant next to world of sports.. but i think the frigde got smth on. there was a weird smell empowering the restaurant, and the ice cream was melting la. so we decided to go to the flea market instead.

the stuff at the flea market was so cheap!! shirts, shorts, skirts, etc etc were all selling at 2 bucks la! the cheap ones. some of them were branded stuff leh. some were slightly mre ex, arnd 10-15 bucks.. but we all bought the 2 bucks one. except for sherman. who bought 2 shirts at 20 bucks each. oh man. rich guy>.< i bought 2 shirts( one normal and one polo) and a black skirt. jiayi bought a pair of shorts, christine bought a shirt and a voodoo doll hp strap, cass bought 2 voodoo hp straps, then xue lin bought a belt and a shirt, sherman bought 2 shirts and a cd.

went to taka to have venezia. the dark choc very nice!! durian and mango not bad too! the belgium choc and dark choc like no diff. haha. christine bought a parmesan cheese pretzel. quite nice leh! haha. i found another source of snack(:

we found this small corner near art friends to sit down, but the security guard came to sae we cant sit there=/ xue lin and jiayi were at kinokuniya.. then they spent such a long time there. i wonder why=p haha. so we went to art friends instead. found quite alot of stuff there. can give for valentines' day=D haha.

went home aft that.. even though we din really do anything today, it was quite fun=D great company! =D

S17 outing 2! (:

2007-01-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

today there's another S17 outing.. actually they couldn decide where to go de.. so in the end we decide for them and arnd half the class sae they can go.. so, yay(: settled for marina square.. cuz there got pool and bowling.. and there's esplanade.. so can go there talk cock=)

before that, the lessons were super boring la. and i was feeling quite tired. firstly, physics pract was so diffiult la. i din have time to finish, and i din really understand what the experiment was about>.< no time for break, and even had to use the first bit of math lecture to finish up my physics pract la. which reminds me, must go back and finish up my tutorial on the applications of integration..

chem pract was rather fun.. and there was lunch. and 2 periods ltr was pe la! and we had to run 4 rounds leh! on the first round, i alr had a serious stitch la. and it was hurting like hell. i haven ran so slowly in my life before! and my stomach had nv hurt so bad before la. i was so scared that it was appendicts. but i was glad i perservered to the end and finished the 4 rounds=D

i was late for the outing.. so when i reached they all were like "haha. u very early hor". haha. then we waited for everyone to come.. which was ek theng, seoh ying, vivien, shermin, ivana, zhong huan, jian hao, sherman. yup. then we walked to marina sq to decide on a place for dinner. decided on marina food loft.. and sherman A came.. with all the gifts for them.. cheryl came too.. but she had to leave early..

actually wanted to bowl, but went to play pool in the end.. everyone crowded arnd the table. quite fun. BUT. the management there super irritating la. "table 28, pls do not sit on the pool table" "table 28, pls do not take pictures" and both times is the ogl's fault la. first is sherman sit, then i used sherman's cam take pic and got flash. argh. so irritating. i think we got black listed la. haha. halfway thru the girls went to fetch theresa, then left a few of us. then they were saying faster play one game. then we were all like rushing aft bullet train la. super funny. then we all got super high. ek theng, sherman T, jian hao and me VS sherman A and zhong huan. of cos we win la=p there was once when the girls vs the guys, sherman A hit in the black ball and we won=p

then the guys left to play arcade, and sherman T suggested ek theng and me vs him. we almost won la! he won by one ball only lor=p haha. then the last few mins sherman T and i had 2 one on one. and i won the second one! yippee! haha. first time i win someone leh. hehe=D

by the time we left, we were all super high la. and all kinds of jokes came out. we were laughing all the way back la. haha. outing: SUCCESS! =D

there goes elaine>.<

2007-01-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

today's the day where elaine goes off to australia.. i still rmb the time when she said she wanted to go overseas to study.. that was like, in sec 2. i tot she was joking. who knows, 2 years ltr, she's really leaving for australia..

our clique has lasted for 3 years, much longer than we expected.. and even tho we haven met up for quite some time, whenever we meet up, we will still talk as tho we were still in sec 2.. quite happy(: but now.. our further outings might only consit of 5 ppl.. come how, it doesn seem complete without elaine..

went home to bathe first.. then went to bugis.. wang huan was collecting elaine's and her shirt.. then we met up with wanteng and wendy.. then we went to changi airport together.. the journey seems so short la. normally if i go alone.. it seems super long..

reached there at arnd 6 plus.. then we suddenly remembered it was yao lei's bdae.. speaking of yao lei, i haven seen him in 2 years la. sometimes i see him on the bridge, but when i wave to him he dun wave back la. so i stopped waving to him=p then we went around look for nice restaurants to eat in, but in the end decided to go to burger king=p haha.

before we went to burger king, we went arnd to look for a cake for yao lei.. actually wanted to go crystal jade bakery to buy a small cake de. but in the end we settled on bengawan solo. before we bought the cake, haha, guess what we found! cny goodies on sample! haha. we sampled everything la! and some we even ate mre than one. haha. and the sample size quite big. aft we left they had to refill=p and aft we finish sampling, we just bought a slice of cake. hehe. wang huan even wanted to change her clothes to go back to sample. of cos she din in the end la=p haha.

yao lei super funny la. i din realise he was so lame last time!! every single sentence he sae is enough to send me into a ball of laughter la. and he and wang huan are really the ultimate la. i kept laughing and laughing la. i think he's the second shi kai=p and he insisted we eat the cake we bought for him.

in the end elaine only came at arnd 930.. and there were so many other ppl arnd la.. we had to wait until like 10 before she had time for us.. we managed to take a clique photo.. and wanqin even cried la=p but she was crying and laughing at the same time. hehe. we watched elaine disappear into the departure hall, and left, wondering when will be the next time we see her again.. hopefully in june.. she sent us an sms each. and we sent her a joined msg. each of us send her one word=p quite fun(: and today quite memorable(:

cca orientation

2007-01-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

today was the first day i went for cca orientation.. at first when i went there, i was really overwhelmed by all the hinese prcs. they were all speaking in their own dialects, and they all looked like they knew each other so well. somehow, i get the feeling im not supposed to be here..

then i met my NY senior.. and aline, from my first week og last yr, and the atmosphere loosened up. luckily for them. then i found a girl from MGS, amy, who was not a chinese prc! yay. haha. so we talked quite alot. and soon, another girl, from st nics, jiehui, came to join us! and thats it. 3 non chinese prcs. if not for ye chuan, nj's annual chinese drama, i wun even be here la. same goes for jie hui and amy=) we had quite a lot of fun getting to noe each other.. and gossiping abt each other in front of each other. haha. and there was snacks too=p so not bad la.

waited with xue lin for jia yi to finish dance. cass was there too. so all 3 of us were doing hw, and also talking la. then shi kai asked if i could wait for him. he' a strange person. haha. cuz this whole week we've sorta been ignoring each other. cuz he's been really irritatin. blurting out things that he shouldn, and suaning me with that serious pissed off look on his face. this reached the peak aft house session just now, and he walked off without even saying bye to me la. then he ask me wait for him0.0

waited in the end, and we eventually stopped ignoring each other. he even helped me pick elaine's farewell present for tmr.. guess i'll stop here for now(:

What should i do?

2007-01-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

today had lunch with S17.. full strength! wow. haha. quite happy.. we're moving towards a bonded S17! whee. went to KAP. wah, i hate KAP la. that stupid auntie sae we cant bring outside food. wat the la. everyone else was eating macs. just 2 ppl not eating cannot ar? grr. next time must go with the ogls and go kao pei them. ask xue lin go. haha. super malu la. i've nv ever been so malu in my whole life before la. i'll always rmb tt auntie=/

then they had to go back before 2pm.. actually if they dun have lesson can go out together. but well. did abit of work before going to candy empire with Jr. he only ended lesson at 340.. so got quite alot of work done.. i din noe that the place i had been going was millenia walk la. haha. i tot it was just.. part of marina sq. we talked quite alot la.. of cos we bought chocs and candy too=p

so we were talking abt the same topic and different ppl.. and he told me i should really think abt it. whether i wan to strive for what i want, or should i just let it be.. im getting m and mre frustrated by it every single day.. wat if i find out smth i dowan to noe? haix. how did i ever land up like this?!?! what should i do...

Monday blues..

2007-01-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

today's another boring day. if not for that dizzy spell during pe, most prob i'd be at trng.. but went home instead. i hate headaches!! argh. recently everyday i'd been going home to do hw. so far the stress hasn settled in yet.. just hope that thie hw craze of mine will last.. cant wait for weekends.

anyway, shant focus on boring school. i just heard this online blog thing on 933.. quie cute la. da tou fen was talking abt an experience with her bf.. cuz they were like talking less and less, so she asked him if he realised that. so he said that he tot alot, and he said out everything he tot abt.. i wonder if all couples do tt. haha.

and she added that talks like this are inevitable.. a couple that like each other will come to a decison where they choose if they wan to remain frens or get tog.. but then, if its just a one sided, then should just give up.

but sometimes, haha, its the cheap thrill of thinking abt whether that guy realli notices you, and if he likes you too, and when every little thing seem so significant. thats the fun of liking someone.. come to think of it, i haven had this feeling for quite some time le. after a while, this kind of feeling becomes sorta ma fan. haix. i oso duno how come im toking abt this all of a sudden. dun sae le.. pictures! =D pic we took aft walk in.. it was really a success for us.. except for the part where Shi kai carried audrey but accidentally knocked into the chair. i really miss the ogls and orientation. haix. such fond memories..another one.. with han looking super spastic=p okie. thats all for today! (:

1st S17 outing!

2007-01-21T16:29:00.000+08:00

Aft sooo many days of sian-ness in school, its finally the weekend!! yes! haha. and we've organised an outing. actually, not we, but everyone helped=) thanks to mel, cheryl and isabel for helping to decide the date and place, and tonnes of apologies for changing the time so suddenly. paiseh paiseh. and thanks to Jian Hao for mass smsing everyone, not once but twice. it was really thanks to him that we were having an outing in the first place=D and thanks to everyone who turned up, and those who told me they couldn make it.

we waited for arnd one hr before everyone turned up. but still was lacking 2 ppl.. we took a rather long time to decide where we wna eat=p haha. in the meantime we took lotsa pictures at the fountain at Ngee Ann City.. at this time johnathan and vivien haven joined us yet.. so its 7 ppl(:

and here is where johnathan alr joined us. oh no. i just realised shanshan was left on top with the guys.then we headed to crystal jade. but it was so crowded! everywhere in taka was super crowded. so we went to cine instead. relatively lesser ppl, and we settled for jap food, kobanyashi. it was quite empty there. and aft we finished eating, we also took plenty of pictures. they all managed to push ceryl and jian hao tog to take a pic. and cheryl looked so shy=p but jian hao looks super sian! cmon! perk up, there's a chio bu next to you la! haha
since kobanyashi was so empty, we stayed on for quite a while more.. and here were the poeple who came for lunch.. vivien, ivana, shan shan, jaymie, see kai, sherman on the left. shermin, me, cheryl, jian hao, johnathan on the rightclose up shots of right row and the leftsome of the girls(vivien, ivana, me and shermin) and the guysand before cheryl and jian hao were willing to take a pic together, they kept trying to trick me into takeing picture with sherman. -.-lll see kai even said he wanted to tell me smth, when he actually planned to make me sit down and take a pic with him>.< in the end, when we finally agreed to take the picture, EVERYONE whipped out their hp and started gathering arnd to take our pic-.-lll haha. for once, i felt quite popular=p hehe.

then we decided to go play pool. but we were on the waiting list, plus lotsa ppl din noe how to play, so we went to the lan center to go toilet. haha. and we sat down to discuss our next outing. so far, there's gona be lunch on tuesday.. then friday going SAFRA at redhill to bowl. yup. im quite happy to see them all together. there are some ppl that are starting to become neutral and not really belonging to any cliques le. yay! (:

int he end we decided to play pool. try try lor. in the end all of us crowd arnd one table and played one game. quite fun leh! haha. first it was guys against girls. then whenever we got one in, we will cheer and clap. haha. real noisy=p overall, i felt it was quite a nice outing. so, first outing-success!! =D

SIAN!!!

2007-01-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

argh. i had never imagined NJ to be sooo sian. ever since i got to noe the torres ogls, everything just became more interesting. now that im back to normal life.. feels rather weird. like, everything was just a dream. i dun want it to end!!!

i still rmb how we managed to bond with og 17 even though it was a mere 3 days.. and then i rmb how i tot og 19 was boring cuz they just din talk. and now, i dun even really get to see og 17 arnd. and S17 has become such a noisy bunch. haha. lookin at them, i feel kinda proud that we managed to bring them together and hype them up. even though there are still obvious cliques.. hopefully this prob will be solved soon. they really dun have much time left.. but they are a rather enthu class(:

orgainisn an outing this sat.. hopefuly arnd 12 can make it.. planning to go watch movie, or play pool, eat. eh, anything we can think of la. if it goes well, mb can organise another one nxt tue..

today's chem test was.. not too bad la. but not good either. gained back a lil confidence cuz i managed to finish the paper. oh man. there's loads of hw to be done!! so far i've done chem. physics!! and GP. grr. and its only the first week of lessons. hard to imagine how the rest of the year will be like. ewww.

realised my blog had been quite pictureless lately. and i really gota change my skin. its getting boring.

OG 17!

OG 19 at external hunt. at first station where aaron was the station master. he was quite nice la. haha. they're supposed to keep their feet tog and cross some obstacles w/o touching them. even though they touched quite a few times, aaron just closed one eye. in fact, i think he just closed both=p

entangled! haha. actually they untangled themselves alr. we did it pretty fast. like within 3 mins=D i guess we're all smart ppl. exp with me helping them=D haha.

i never liked dragons. i always thought animals with fur were cuter. but this one not too bad la. haha. it looks spastic=p

OG lunch

2007-01-16T17:19:00.000+08:00

actually.. it was me like half an OG lunch. or rather, half a S17 class. only half of them came.. but i felt it was rather good for a start.. hopefully more ppl will come next time..

anyway, today i was rather excited for lunch.. cuz the rest of the day was like. super ultra sian. i never expected school to become so so so sian. and there's physics, math hw to do.. and there's chem to study.. but now that i noe its not counted.. i feel better when i study.. and hopefully, i'll rmb more things..

first thing in the morning i realised i forgot to bring my jacket. oh man. and at that moment i could imagine myself freezing throughout the day. these few days were so super cold!!! luckily the terra ogls lent me jacket. they so nice right=D and we're going to do CIP together too! =D quite excited..

came early with bruno, cuz he wanted to run.. wow. he's great man. i really wun wake up early to run la. reminds me, gota go and run soon..

lectures and everything was sooo boring. arghhh. finally came to lunch time. but they took so long to decide whether they should go out and eat and wheter they should put down their bags. haha. finally decided.. and we brought them to eat wanton noodles behind NJ.. but it was so crowded!! then we went to curry wok.. but it's closed on tuesdays!! argh. haha. paiseh. make all of them walk so much=p

they din really complain la. they're quite a nice bunch. just that they guys keep suaning me and the girls keep teasing me. haha. besides that, they're a pretty nice bunch=) in the end we settled for prince. the fish and chips also not very nice. so right, next time i'll stick to chicken chop(:

throughout lunch, the guys just kept suaning me la>.< and even bingxin gang up with them against me!! grr. hrumphf. haha. but overall. fun la. hope we have smth like this soon(:

boring skol>.<

2007-01-15T17:45:00.000+08:00

haix. school has finally started. although i kinda anticipated that it will be boring, but i din expect it to be sooo boring. i miss the early morning briefings.. and the late afternoon debriefs plus the staying back to practise walk in.. good times pass super fast!!

today was the official start of skol. awww. i miss my fellow ogls! and og 19!! luckily there's still a terra ogl table where the few of us will gather there in the morning and during lunch.. but our lunch period and breaks are all different!! except for wed.. and thursday i happen to have a free period then.. so i can go with them(: and on friday our lunch got pushed back!! so i can go eat with them too=) yay.

as for og 19, hmm. we have the same lunch and breaks.. but i dun really eat with them.. tmr they asked us to join them for lunch=) quite anticipating. its gona be like orientation again.. but this time, hopefully it will be a whole class thing and not split up into cliques.. they're very clique-ish.. got 4 major cliques.. but luckily among them there's one that's got diversity(:

today's lessons were all introductory.. chem tcher looks nice.. econs tcher looks nice too.. phyics tcher.. hmm. still ok la. he was the only one who made us do work today.. but it was still manageable. math tcher very funny!! haha. looking forward to math tmr.. besides that.. hmm. thats about all=)

orientation!! =D

2007-01-12T17:55:00.000+08:00

orientation super fun!!!! at first when i first saw og 19, i was like. err. so little guys. the girls all so quiet. doesnt look very fun. plus i was having some internal problems too.. and i really really missed og 17. even though we only spent a mere 3 days together, we were alr rather close.. and the guys more enthu, the girls talked more too.. plus there wasn alot of cliques. infact, lke no cliques.

but og 19!! argh. they split up into the chinese clique, indian clique, and girls clique, and the guys clique. quite difficult to get them to sit together for lunch. and i had to force the guys to partner the girls somemore. argh. din have this prob with og 17 cuz first week no mass dance la=p and i was getting closer to the ogls, and went for dinner with them.

then the second day, i was station master.. so din really get to bond with them too.. and i still felt they were rather boring.. but i got to noe them a lil better.. the guys were perking up, becoming more enthu alr.. and i was also getting to talk to the girls more..

and the third day, external hunt.. got to know them much better.. and the guys are really really funny! the girls are also quite lame! haha. kinda glad that i was their ogl.. they were all quite sporting.. and they were quite fun! haha. we had a great time during the external hunt.. and we went to KAP for dinner..

before the dinner.. lotsa stuff happened.. like cass got into a quarrel with shi kai.. then i was staying with her to comfort her. yeah, i know its none of my business, but i mean.. if u saw someone so agitated, you wun leave her alone right? yeah. i guess to a certain extent i shouldn leave my og alone.. but its not like they're really there alone.. i have my reasons for doing stuff. and its my personality. its really fine if you dun like it. plus charissa and chok key also. wah. i cant stand him la. and the equivalent of him. and i sorta exploded too.

anyway, the dinner was fun!! haha. got jian hao and keshia to do a forfeit.. and they had to bite the french fry. haha. quite funny=p and at then end sherman asked me to push their heads together. haha. must ask them to go upload the video=D and sherman kept getting kissed and hugged by audrey. haha. shi kai damn no creativity la. always come up with the same forfeit. and sherman was the forfeit king of the day, clinching 3forfeits=p the girls all din get it la. next time should sabo them=p

on thurs, not much also.. it kept raining.. and then we had 2 sessions of mass dance.. kena saboed my my og, cuz in the end i ended up with sherman for the 2nd session. and had to tell xue lin that i couldn partner him. felt kinda bad. cuz i noe how it feels to be like without a partner.

dance party was super fun!! oh. the guys finally found out i wasn J2. haha. they said they felt cheated=p and they all started to bully me>.< lynette they all went to prepare spaghetti for them. while we stayed to bring them out to buy food. lotsa things just cant be said here, and its really the experience that counts. oh man. im so gonna miss orientation!!!

desaru fruit farm:)

2006-12-17T15:25:00.000+08:00

I remember i was like, 9 years old when i first went to desaru. its in JB, and its just a ferry ride away. at that time, i went desaru impian, and it was something like genting's indoor theme park la. but a much smaller scale one.. and it left a very lasting impression on me. now i can still rmb very very clearly..

this time i was quite excited to go again. but there were some hiccups, and my goodness. the hotel is so not good. t first they were supposed to give us a much nicer hotel, in the end changed to an old one. grr. and the toilet ceiling was leaking. in the end changed to another room=/

went to the fruit farm. it was quite big, and got loads of fruits. one type of fruit got sooo many species.

so many types of jambu. water apples. those that we see in singapore are so small. the ones there, some were as big as a grapefruit!! and i learnt some health tips. dragonfruit. if u are suffering from constipation, or cant seem to shit for goodness knows how long, eat a dragonfruit on an empty stomach. the tour guide say 5 mins ltr sure go toilet. who wants to try? =p

and there was a mini zoo!

monkey eating starfruit:)

to msia:)

2006-12-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

oooh.. so long nv blog le.. shall psts super long posts. haha. jam blospot. then again, i think blogspot is prepared for ppl like me=p so, here goes..

the bus trip was full of hiccups for me. first, the aircon started dripping on me. and i had to move all the way to the back. luckily there was a spare seat. if not, i really cant imagine what would have happened to me. then the bus broke down and they had to make a detour to ipoh to change bus. so we reached at 7 plus in the morn. actually, this timing is just nice la. so there IS a silver lining under every dark cloud! plus this time i was real tired. just came back from chalet. so i slept like a pig on the bus=p

so i went back to msia, my dad's hometown.. actually, i cant believe tats where my dad grew up.. its super dirty, messy, and there's like, no space at all. my goodness. it took me two trips to adapt.. but i guess, when u are used to this type of environment, it's possible. this time, as it was an impromptu trip, my annoying and irritating aunts are not gg!! so we are on our own!! yes yes yes! it was the best trip in these 3 years! i din know my dad's hometown got so many things to see=p

so the first day, after seeing how my grandma is still as fit as a fiddle, we went for breakfast:) quite heavy- fried kway teow, wanton noodles, kway teow soup and fried dough fritters.

the fried kway teow is quite different from singapore's. its all white, then its all kway teow, no noodles, and there's little succulent prawns too! like the one above=)

the wanton noodles were nice than singapore's too. cuz the noodle is a little more borad, but its not as broad as mee pok. then the noodles suck up the gravy so that its full of flavour! and best is, there is no ketchup=) frankly speaking, i think ketchup spoils the taste of the noodles, so thats why i dun like how some stalls in singapore adds ketchup when i sae i only wan a little chilli=/

next is the fried dough fritters, you tiao:) its shorter than singapore's, but again, much nicer. its very much more crispy, but inside its not too crispy such that once you bite, it flies everywhere la. so yum, breakfast was good!!! =)

our driver, my cousin, was taking his father-in-law to the doctor, so we had to wait for him.. and in the meantime, my cousin introduced me to "My Girl", a popular korean drama. hehe.

its about this girl, who is rather poor, and this rich guy, owner of big hotel, who is looking for his lost cousin.. so they got to know each other, and the guy asks the girl to act as his cousin, cuz she looks so much like his aunt. plus his grandfather was very weak alr, and his last wish is to find the lost grandaughter. who knows, aft she acts as his cousin, she cheers the grandpa up so much that he recovers completely.

and then, the girl starts to like her fake cousin, and after some time, the cousin also starts to like her back, but both refuses to admit cuz cousins can't like each other. even if they admit, their family wun accept. it's a super nice show!!

and there's this suporting character, lee jun ki, he one who acted in wang de nan ren. yeah, he looks so gay there, but he looks super cute here!!! =D haha.

okie. now back to the trip. so my cousin brought us to bukit merah. it's like a water theme park. but it was raining!!! argh. so i couldn go in. but it looked pretty nice from the outside.
looks nice. haha. shall go there if i have a chance. after which we went to taiping.. also not much.. just walked into a shopping center.. and then went for dinner. it was really pouring cats and dogs and we got all wet by the time we reached my aunt's spare house. there was an opera that night, so we went to take a look. there were subtitles by the side too! haha. for ppl like me who really couldn catch what they were saying. even the subtitles were fast! the best part was that they sold food there=p hee. the chicken wings were bbq-ed on the spot, and we ordered cuttlefish kang kong, fried kway teow, and lor bak(in spore, known as ngoh hiang) yum=D

the next day went penang.. it was the first time in duno how many years that i took the ferry! the wind just blow and blow:) quite fun. yeah, and most of the days, i just watched the drama. hehe=p

off for fun:)

2006-11-08T11:06:00.000+08:00

whee. im going to go off to chalet soon:) now go spare time, so type abit la. my left butt still hurts from ystd's badminton. the kids were so active, i think im becoming old.

saw winnie the pooh being sold at watson's. still rmb how long and hard i searched for it after finding it at a small shop. now, everywhere oso sell>.<

good luck for all those having Os and As. i feel so lucky=p but well, my turn will come two years ltr. and now, its the hols, so i shld enjoy=p

and on thurs, gg off to msia. i really hope my grandma is ok. she had always been a strong woman to me. if she is ok, mb i can shop arnd with my mum:)

and the regular doses of pictures=p

sho kewt. haha. i learnt this from justin. still rmb last year we were talking about these kind of language. "i lub euuu" was commonly used then, and we found out lub actually means bashing someone up. haha. so i like you become i bash you. haha.

i wonder who made all these. haha. so funny.

they got married again?? hmm. shall watch the rest of the episodes and see:)

ok then, tata=)

y.o.u.

2006-11-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

haix. been thinking alot these past few days. blame it on the jogging. when im jogging, there's nothin else i can do right. so think lor. someone still sae i very dense>.<

if i never met you on the bus that day, perhaps we wouldn have become so close. yeah, we shared secrets and all our feelings, but we shared. we're no longer like this. we use to talk to each other everyday, but now.. not even once a week. deep down inside, i knew this would happen one day, but i never expected it to come so fast. when i was down in the pits, i couldn even find you. a friend in need is a friend indeed. when you're not there when im in need, does that mean you are not my friend?

hopefully not. you have a big group of close friends. very often, people tell me, friends, the mroe the merrier. but true friends, just a few is enough. you wun have time for all of them. i guess this is ur case. you have too many good friends. im just like one of them waiting in line. i got my turn, and i have to go all the way to the back to wait for another turn. so i have decided, i dun like to queue up. so i left.

luckily i left, if not i would not have seen the ppl queuein for me. because of some superficial thinking, i neglected friends who were caring for me all along. perhaps letting go was smth i should have done long ago. all i want to say is, i will be ur friend, but i have accepted the fact that you'll nv be mine.

aiya, my show start liao. haha. shall continue tmr. now, pictures(:

they really look cute together. haha. i think i've said it duno how many times=p

yul is so cute too!! but shin nicer la. yul too scheming>.<

the cartoon guy looks cuter than joo ji hoon. but yoon eun hye looks better than the cartoon girl=p

beware of strings!!!

2006-11-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

after HCL, i seem to be so much free-er. hmm. nothing much to do, so im forced to pack my room. oh man. how i wish im sabrina the teenage witch. one point and my mum will be happy. but too bad. im not=/

today was one unlucky day. how was i supposed to noe the strings on my shorts were so deadly?!?! i just saw one strand of string, so i decided to pull it out instead of taking the scissors. oh damn. stupid lazy me. because of tt string, i got a long cut on both my index finger. so i went around looking like an idiot with 2 plastered index fingers>.<

i now realise the importance of my index fingers. rah. couldn type at ease, couldn wash anything, couldn eat properly!! luckily it looks quite ok now. thats us. we always come to appreciate things too late=/

im quite worried about my grandma. she seems very sick. i really really hope she will recover. so my dad says, "lets go back to msia to visit her over the weekend"
no objection.
dad: ok, lets go on friday night.
me: orh
pause.
me: which friday?
dad: this friday la
wow. thats like. 2 days away. luckily i only need one afternoon to pack my things. one weakness of mine. cuz i noe i only need one afternoon, so i always wait till the last min. another reason for my mum to nag. haha.

shin is getting cuter and more likeable by the day!! awww. haha. more pictures!!
i think they look so cute together. aww=) haha.

this picture is so small. hrumphf. but they still look so sweet. haha. oh no. im too addicted le!! >.<

shin looks horrible here. yul looks spastic. haha. so does chae gyung. only hyo rin looks nice. but she's so mean. cute picture right=)

OH YES YES YES!! =DD

2006-10-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

oh damn. i just deleted my whole message. argh. shall start over again. ok. YEAH!! hcl is finally over!! i can finally do what i wanted to do!! finally, its the start of the holidays!! yoohoo!! i can finally start to enjoy myself!! so many finally. haha.

but.. i always have alot of things to do before exams, but after exams, i suddenly have nothing to do. no strong desire to do anything. always like that. must change. argh. but i really feel there's nothing to do. someone please suggest smth to me. haha.

ok, well, there's actually quite a few things coming up la. today just had a mini class outing, went to bukit timah plaza for lunch--KFC! haha. it was my first time eating zinger burger. yum=D and after that we went to play pool. was quite pro for a few balls, but besides that, still ok la. hee.

upcoming events include ice skating on thursday. should i go? i wana go, but its like, so far. rah. if only the ice skating rink is in orchard=) hmm. shall think about it. then there's trng!! exclamation marks not to show that im excited, but to show that its urgent, i need to do smth abt it. i cannot keep telling them the same thing, must let them noe. shant sae here for now.. haix. life's full of questions. =/

chalet's coming too!! gona make my cheesecake. surprisingly, it was successful on my first attempt!! haha. it was quite nice to me too=p if u wan, hehe, just leme noe.

im like so addicted to goong. shin is so sweet and yul is so cute. the lead girl in an idol drama always get to act with 2 cute and nice guys. so unfair! haha. i still think shin is nicer=)

and now, pictures galore!!

haha. i think that the guy below chae gyung is quite cute too. got character=p

i think shin is damn sweet la. like so cold, then suddenly hug her!! awwww:)

this looks funny. haha.

NJ open day

2006-10-15T14:40:00.000+08:00

NJ open day was quite fun, for me at least.. although on a whole, it was quite boring.. perhaps cuz i came ltr, but also there was not much hyper-ness. last yr's open day was much better. this yr is just not as fun la. but i had my own fill of activities.. came at arnd 1130, when my shift starts 1 hr later, cuz bruno asked me to bring him arnd.. and he was late>.< argh, duno wads wrong with blogger. keep deleting my words!! another time!! and i will... erm. curse and swear. ok. anyway, i was saying that this year track very hiong, stand at the side gate bombard ppl. Ok. Haha. I decided to type on word so tat it wun be lost=DD yup, and I got bombarded when I entered. Haha. It was rather funny tho.

Bruno couldn even see me when I was standing right in front of him la! >.< haha. He came with shawn and jun kai, and it took me less than half an hr to bring them around. Realised that our skol is quite small. In fact, very small=p stayed a while at the hallm got very nice performances=p

I really hope that they will come to NJ. It will be great to see all my pri skol friends once again. I miss all of you!!! Haix.

Jr came too. But he sae most prob not choosing this skol. Too boring. VJ better. I can see why. Haha. But well, this skol not bad oso la! =D and he came rather late, at a time where we were all slacking and pigging out. So I was eating, as usual. But hey. Who doesn eat?!?! =p and when he saw me, he laughed and said smth like this: 又在吃东西! 你很猪 leh. >.< and he still dare to ask for strawberry ice cream. When I was drinking outside the girls’ toilet,

Him: toilet arh?
Me: arh.
Him: can go in?
Me: can..

And he just went in like that. Luckily I stopped him in time=p then went orchard to look for bag. Some gay bag=p oh well. Its subjective. Haha. Din manage to find the bag, but managed to find this left handers’ book. There’s a day called left handers’ day! So amazing:)

I forgot what else did I actually write, but that’s all for now:) pictures!!

my fairy tale

2006-10-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

oh man. im like, so addicted to princess hours. typical story, where its an arranged marriage, the guy acceps cuz he thinks it will be fun, and just cuz he's bored. grr. such a jerk, but he turns out to be a super nice guy!! he's like. SNAG--> sensitive new age guy!! =)) and the girl agrees to save her family from money woes. and then, they fall in love.

haha. so typical. i think its bad for me to watch so many of these shows depicting perfect guys. cuz i'll dream of a fairy tale and i'll never get married. on tue we were talking about how bad guys were, cuz we were saying in princess hours, the guy saw the girl sleeping w/o blanket, then he covered her with a blanket. so mei keen and i were saying, in real life, the guy most prob wil just kick her off the bed. hehe. so right, be glad if he just dun do anything=p

"so you like him la!" aiyo. moral dilemma. haha. you're too perfect. you're everything that a girl wants in her partner, but its so unreal. meikeen always say i got bad taste, cuz i sae the crown prince very cute. he's cute cuz he's adorable but ugly mah. and he's real. he's got a jerkish side, but that makes him a human. same for you. i cant seem to find any flaw in you.

kinda stupid. but that's what i feel. you give me a different feeling. not the heart beat fast fast feeling, but the hmm i wonder how you are like feeling. its a more down to earth feeling. anyway, this is kinda lame, cuz i dun even have a choice. just crapping away. =DD its nice to dream. hee. and now, a few pictures!!

Quote of the day!!

2006-09-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

hmm. very long nv blog le. so this shall be quite a long post=p discovered quite a lot of interesting stuff these 2 weeks, but that aside, i shall talk about what happened today.

"the last time i checked, i was the ____" --> quote of the day

"dun argue with me, i am always right!" --> quote of the year

oh man. where can you find another person like this on earth!! how can u be like this??? its not as though we are standing up for something that is unreasonable, but it is something we believe in wat. if we think like that, you cannot say it is wrong k. its like, thats what the society is like what. dun always tell us to grow up. grow up yourself! the society is competitive, if we just give out all our ideas like this, we will be at a disadvantage wat. its ok if we share ideas willingly, but there are some people who are just waiting for the ideas to drop from the sky. you mean you are encouraging this? then everyone might as well just wait for money to drop from the sky.

please la. dun think we are always wrong k. learn from others! if u keep thinking you are right, then pls, i think u need to get new specs and look at the world.

anyway, on a happier note, we kinda had a mini class outing today. whee!! haha. and it was like, super impromptu somemore. all thanks to the suspension of cca and the TGIF saying. for your info, haha, it means Thank God Its Friday. fri=no skol for 2 days, can sleep late, wake up late, no nid hand in hw!! =DD

we were playing captain's ball, and then basketball, and then meikeen asked if we want to go eat ice cream. ice cream just have a incredible attractive force to pull us towards it. haha. 10 of us agreed to go. abut like, 1/3 of the class!! whee. so off we went to venezia. the scholars all ate lemon flavour. so united. maybe we shuld've all gotten lemon. then it will be the class flavour=p well, 1/3 class flavour=p

ice cream rocks!!

And.. the glad times=D

2006-09-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

so besides the bad stuff, of cos there are happy stuff=D last sat my parents brought me to orchard road to chop, and i bought a pair of shoes and slippers!! hehe. super happy=DD

my HCL prelims did much betetr than expected. i seriously thought i was going to fail, cuz most of the time, i din even noe what the qn was asking abt, and i just anyhow write what i think. and the summary, i din even copy anything from the passage=/ its a comfort, after failing a paper. =) so plus and minus become neutral=D

do you know you make my heart skip a beat? everything around me makes me wonder, i shouldn think about what i feel is wrong. argh.. its not my fault!! okok, i will promise not to think again. then again, im not sure even. is it really you? or someone else? >.<

the hard times

2006-09-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

and here's what kept me from blogging the past 2 weeks. haix. i failed my MI paper. this measn that i will fail my entire module. i've never failed any module before, and i seriously din noe how to tell my mum. its like, i wanted to prove to her that she quit her job for a good cause, and i wnated to make her proud. she loved her job, but cuz of me, she had to quit it. i really wanted her to feel that she din quit her job for nothing..

but she was quite nice, perhaps cuz of the fact i bawled in front of her before she could ask anything. and she was quite shocked. hehe. so she was like, it doesn matter, no point making urself so upset over smth that is already over. and she just kept on comforting me. plus she cooked my favourite egg=p

so i was busy redoing my paper. haiz. had been doing since last thursday until this wed.. then kept redoing and everything, wnating to do my best, but then, i realised that i should even care so much abt it and neglect other things. so there was a drastic change in me from tue to wed. on te, i was still trying to perfect it. on wed, i was like, hek, just hand in!! i dun wan to see it anymore!!! haha.

this whole week haven been going well. kinda upset. you haven talked to me for one whole week. donch u realise? haix. perhaps u have other people to talk to. and you did smth that utterly piss me off. and perhaps u still donch noe.

truth

2006-09-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

sometimes, when u dun like a person, no matter how good he is to you, you just wun like him. compared to one where you two hit it off on the first time u met, of cos choose this one la. they always say, 感情是可以培养的. but sometimes, its just not possible la. u must have a good feling about him, and you cannot be too close, close to the extent that you two are just like brothers and sisters.

haha. so much learnt in just 30 mins of a drama=p but the mre i watch dramas, the more i understand the reality of life. in every show, there will bound to be an ideal partner. for the guys, the girl will be funny, sweet, pretty, caring, kind, etc. for the girls, the guy will also be funy, rather good looking, smart, rich, talented, etc. but in life, cmon la, if there are really ideal partners, then there will be no nid for divorce>.< kinda sad, but well. gota accept it. but of cos, all of us wish for this ideal partner la. possible to find, but not necessary will end up tog. reminds me of last year. hmm=/

anyway, change topic. must sae this 2 words, if not bingxin, gloria and shufang will kepp saying no link>.< ya, today smth weird happen. ever found out that person X actually does smth abt you in their free time? like, most unexpected one. i read somewhere that this means, either X likes you alot, or admires you and wants to be like you, OR OR OR. X hates you like hell, is jealous of you, dun like you. wow. so does X hate me, or admire me?

was i really so mean? oh man. cannot break my principle just cuz of X!! ok, from now on, i shall TRY MY VERY VERY best to be nice to X. does avoiding = being nice? argh. moral dilemma. bring nice to X for the happiness of X vs being nice to myself for the happiness of myself. rawr. wat shall i choose??

and today, i realsied that RV's school colour is orange. so bright. actually when shufang wear not tt bad. but all three of us agree that its advisable not to wear all orange on the track. must do combination. and mix. and match=D

The Devil Wears Prada

2006-09-09T17:03:00.000+08:00

ok, so here goes:

anne hathaway is the female lead. she acts as andrea, a girl who dreams of being a reowned journalist. so she gets introduced to this job, which is to be Miranda's assistant. Miranda is the chief editor of Runway, the famous fashion magazine. so andrea sees this job as a stepping stone to her future career. once she stays at this job for at least a year, everyone will noe her and she will have no difficulty entering a reputable press company.

however, miranda is a DEVIL. she is picky, meticulous, speaks faster than the world's roller coaster when giving out orders and expects the impossible. like getting a flight back when there is a huge storm. and very unreasonable. Andrea is this fasion-hopeless girl whom everyone in the company calls her "that thing", cuz they are simply disguested at her fashion sense.

Andrea slowly works her way up and gains Miranda's trust, and transforms from a fashion twit to a fashion diva=) but she also slowly loses the trust her friends, family and boyfriend has in her. and when miranda asks her to either help her in the biggest fashion show ever in Paris, os lose her job, she chooses to help her, and deprived another assistant of this invaluable chance.

and andrea scores again when she tried to warn Miranda that someone was trying to take over her. but turns out miranda already knows, and turns the table around and sabos her best friend cum best helper instead. so andrea was pissed off. when miranda tells her that she was just like her when she was young, andrea says she does not want to be like her, betraying her friend for her own good. and miranda says "you're already like me. you could've quit but instead you chose to come to paris. you could've choose your family and friends over your career, but u din" upon hearing this, andrea decides to leave and salvage her relationships.

not very meaningful, ppl might think.. but i think it reflects on people's mentality. remember how many times we told our family "i gota do my work, ask me questions when im done" or smth like that? turns out nowadays, we're all getting very self centered. cuz i gota admit, im like that too. if its either you take away smth from ur fren, or you lose ur job, will you do it? honestly, im at a lost too.

but i believe in "do unto others what you wan others to do unto you". i used to think this is not true, but recently, i have been proven wrong. so i guess what my mum usually says is correct too. 不是没报，只是时间未到。there's no need to feel angry, or feel the need to do smth such that another person will suffer, unless you're guilty of it in the first place. if you are right, just look on the bright side. as long as your conscience is clear, heck la. haha. who cares?? but if u hai others, then you'll feel bad wat. if u're one with conscience. yupp, so as long as you feel you're right, just let it be. at least you are able to answer to yourself=)

ITS THE HOLS!!! =DDD

2006-09-04T13:43:00.000+08:00

haha. finally its the hols.. but i feel happy that we managed to cheat me days out of the last week of skol.. like tue's off in lieu for election day.. took so long, but it came at th righ time. haha. holidays always come at the right time=) hehe. and officially, skol nds on thurs cuz its tcher's day celebration! whee. haha.

the celebration was real bad. super boring. only the concil skit was worth watching.. but its like, haha. quite lame. but nice. the rest were. ugh. i hate competitions that ask for the teachers to go up and compete for the biggest smth, smallest smth, fastest smth. that's just. argh. not fun at all. and i couldn hear what the emcee was saying. her voice was too high pitched=/ the guy that came at the end was much clearer. the best dressed competition was also. nt very interesting la. so.. 2 words for NJC 2006 Teachers' Day Celebration. THUMBS DOWN.

I think NY's celebrtion was so much nicer, they always made a big deal out of it. and it always turns out good. kinda miss the celebrations there. there, no one ever thinks of poning any celebrations, cuz nothing would beat sitting there to enjoy the performances. haix.

went for lunch with sharon they all.. oh man. pastamania's baked rice is damn nice!! haha. and the dessert pizza oso not bad. and actually we just wanted o go for lunch.. cuz they sae need to study.. but in e end wanqin, peiying and i go pulled to "the devil wears prada". quite nice la. shall tok more abt it ltr.. sharon din go though.. and we had some kind of a cheap thrill couting how many steps she would take b4 anything happens. owell. nothing happened. haha.

went off to join some other 6A ppl at pool.. and i really really regretted doing smth. anyways. bruno, jk: sorry sorry sorry!!!! =/

i feel kinda bad that i din prepare anything for the teachers.. just din come to my mind cuz i haven been doing it for like, 4 years. but i really feel reallll bad. ok, i made up my mind. i shall bake for all the teacers that have taught me over these 2 years, after my exams, to like, show some appreciation. presents no nid to give only on teachers' day right=) plus i feel NJ teachers are really much nicer than NY teachers.. yupp. thats abt all=D

顺其自然

2006-08-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

其实，温老师说得对。一切还是顺其自然好。

today in class, wen lao shi said this. alot of things, you really cannot force. if u just let it be, it wld be better.. it took me so long to realise this, and this is exactly wat im going to do.

now, come to think of it.. so many things happened cuz i 顺其自然. going for talentime, track problems, solving them out.. making choices.. haix. i guess its time for me to go all the way back, and learn to let things just take its course.

heck heck heck. just let things go.船到桥头自然直. yay. haha

so i shant care so much anymore. back to life.

today went for tt gavel thing. haha. bx and i were like, really self entertaining. haha. then when gloria was doing prize presentation, we were waving like mad and making a fool out of ourselves. hehe. but it was fun. trng was gym. ahh. kena cheated by them again.they sae games in the end not games=/ boo.

thus, i decided tt i shall not believe them again. haha. yawn. getting sleepy. shall talk more tmr then=)

chance chance=)

2006-08-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

realise plenty of things happen by chance. like if fangyu had handed in our chem cd, then we wldn be able to spot the mistakes.. and if mich ahd came tt day, then no one wld've told us abt the mistakes in the cd.. now i understand wat is the meaning of 塞翁失马，焉之非福.

of cos there are times where good things happen, and u realise it is not tt good.. rather then always blame others for these "bad" things that follow, why not just accept them for who they are, and take this chance to realise their true personalities. realising it only now is not a bad thing. denying it is. haha another exmaple of the chinese proverb. mb i shld do this mre often=p

did nothing special over these 2 days.. just tt i did wat i shld do and let go of a huge stone in my heart=) thanks tk. oh we played a game after trng on monday. haha. quite funny. we stand in a circle, if we do smth we start all over again. sounds familiar? haha. its another of esther's games. her games always same pattern one. my parents wld like her. haha. cuz they say they dun like ppl who have "pattern多过badminton" -.-ll haha.

anyway, this game goes like this: u stand in a circle, you row call. isit this "row"? anyway. ya. so u call out a number at least once. cannot go in any particular sequence. then no discussion,and no 2 ppl can call the same no at the same time. wahh. it was rather funny, as ppl came up with tactics to avoid doing so. like if u step forward, haven sae anything, and someone else say alr, you can pretend to sneeze. or leg cramp. or cover ur mouth. hehe. a few ppl keep saying at the same time with the same person and it was rather hilarious.

during trng we did abit of circuits at first

CB:wat circuits?
thomas: DC circuit!=D

haha. it wasn dc circuit la. but i preferred circuit to second part. second part was the beep test. its to test ur aerobic level. and i hated it. really. u ran to and fro to and fro. quite sian, plus plus plus. oh man. there was 8 sets in 1 level. and by level 4, i was seriously having trouble breathing. its not tt i like it kay. but then again, i shall say. i have thalassaemia. its a genetic blood disorder where my blood just cannot take in enough oxygen. sickle cell la. okay, this is bio, but anyway. ya, so i really hate it whne im made to do long d in a certain time. i've told ppl sooo many times tt im like, quite sick of it. grrr. and its not nice being like, the only one not doing smth. arghh. it just feels super bad. like you wana eat, but got toothache, wana play and relax but got loads of hw not done. rawr. i hate my DNA>.<

after trng we did cheer, and they tried to sabo me into bring the center of the cheer. luckily thomas went in. why me?>.< always guy one lor. do i look like a guy to you?? no kay. even tho i might be abit violent sometimes. but hey, with ppl like CB and abel arnd, of cos need to be violent la=D

they sae tmr's trng is games. bleah. they always sae trng will be fun and in the end turns out sadistic. so i decided not to believe and expect the worse=)

and did i sae i hate A!!! "technical diffculties should be factored into the long semester i gave you for this" watever. im so gona curse her la. i bet like, 26 ppl are gg to do tt. in fact, we've always been doing so. &*^%%^&^ stupid A. %^$%^$@ cant stand you. *&&$@%# go away!! i bette not get her next year. if not, rawr. sure protest. stupid A. cannot say full name in case kena "higher authorities" come and invite me go for coffee. haha.

CONDEMMED AGAIN!

2006-08-27T14:24:00.000+08:00

this week must be my bad kharma week la.

on thursday, i sang to the class for the first time and i was like, super scared. my heart was beating super fast and i just culdn calm myself down. din noe wat i was doing la. and i even stopped my song halfway. %$&^% then i managed to continue and poeple said it was quite nice. whew.

and i got judged at and condemmed TWICE. *&%^$ WAD THE. once again, i say. DO NOT JUDGE ME IF YOU DO NOT KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH.

b4 i say anything else, i just wana say that people around me, and who are my friends, will have hear me say thins b4. and i say it again.

Boy A is good looking. full stop. nothing else. oh. personality sucks. but really good looking. Boy B is good at music, thinking, sports, etc etc. Not bad looking. one day, both gets disfigured. i will continue to notice BoyB, cuz there's more to him than looks.as for Boy A, in the first place, if he's only good looking, than i can only LOOK right. its not called like. cuz if he gets disfigured i'l most prob not look.so wat if i only look? dun tell me there's this law that says GIRLS CANNOT LOOK AT CUTE GUYS. there's other people out there who has good looks. and PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME will noe tt im rather random and if i just see a good looking person, regardless of guy or girl, i will sae "hey tt girl is pretty/that guy is good looking"

note i oso say that girls are pretty. is there anythign wrong with appreciating people's looks? at least im not one who says "WAH LAO, THAT GIRL/GUY SO UGLY" isn this more SUPERFICIAL. i so wish you can see this. but apparently not poss.

once again, i will say, do not judge me. and it is terribly hurting to hear people judgin you. its THRICE in a row. and the last straw was saying it right in front of me. right in my face. i was soooo super pissed that i started blowing up. first time i did that over non-academics stuff. in the first place, i din start it. plus when someone insult you right in ur face, you will snap back right?

esp. when you got accused of smth you are not. i am not wat u said. i look beyond the surface. most people, who KNOW ME WELL, usually say i think too much rather than say i only look at the surface. aft so much i went through, i cant believe you said i was S**********. you never knew him. you never knew exactly wat happened. and u said those things w/o thinking abt how much it will hurt me.

yeah. so that's what i did. i snapped back. and i kinda expected a quarrel to take place. instead, i got an apology.... and nt only once, but twice. actually, more than that. so now im like thinking.. mb tt person din mean it.. just say it out w/o meaning to create so much impact. and.. i was thinking.. shld i apologise for snapping? argh. its making me feel so bad. rawr. i hate it!!! rawr. its like, it was quite offensive to me. but i still shld have kept my cool. argh. SHOULD I OR NOT?!?!

condemmed ONE/colours award

2006-08-26T14:36:00.000+08:00

finally, where one day i dun have to go for any projectwork. although gloria is supposed to tell mi if im suposed to do bio with her. and i still feel super bad to xiao chen, for letting her do the editing of the LA advertisement. bleag. sorry sorry=/

ystd was colours award night.. oh and, speaking of colours, im super pissed off by SOMEBODY'S behaviour. this somebody, was soooo unreasonable and vented her/his anger on me la!!! just because people pissed him/her off earlier, doesnt mean can vent it on me right. plus i was being vey polite and respectful alr k. if not i wun ask this somebody in the first place la. and i was super condemmed.

"what reason is it sooo important?" yeah yeah. whatever. and i used to think you were nice. too bad. and this was enought to keep my whole face black for the whole of ystd.

math test was bad. i alr noe i have quite a few mistakes. oh man. i gota stop doing this. stop discussing the questions right after the test. so i wun have to go home with the "i alr noe i got a few qns wrong liao" feeling.

record bath time. 5 mins!! haha. and i felt super fast and efficient. of cos, i was clean too la. haha. then went to meet pei jia, and off we were to the civil service center. isit like his? haha. duno. saw the canoeist performing, haha. rather funny. and ours was quite funny too. and i saw one which i din want to see. but nvm.

the guys looked pretty formal, and stanley looks like a teacher! haha. rachel and charmaine were super pretty la!=) and the hockey girls' performance were quite.. hmm. ok la. ours was rather funny, but nobody really lauhed. except for when the monster came out. which was yujia. hehe. shooting's one was just 2 guys doing beatbox.. the singing was not very nice, but besides that, rather nice.. oh and, i was told, its Civil Servant Club, not civil sevice center. haha. then it was canoeing's performance. quite funny. hehe. the last performance was softball, and they sing super nicely!! wows. haha. quite nice=))

gloria said i looked decent. haha. does tt mean i dun look decent normally?!?! >.<

holidays are coming!! =)

2006-08-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

leme continue the list of ppl i wana thank=) many other ppl still remembered, like jing ying, jia ying, and choon boon. eh. actually CCB not really counted la, cuz is i tell him one. haha=p

and i just realised someone in track has only 2 words for his chinese name. and it sounds quite hilarious. hee hee. perhaps new generation parents should go for a name course entittled "what you shld not name ur child" like mr brown once said, if your surname is zeng, canoot name ur daughter monica. hmmm. monica zeng. sounds rather interesting. haha=D

yupp, anyway, finally handed in our chem,so no nid do any more editing. luckily=)

ystd i was at study session. i managed to finish my compre. super difficult la. then at first they having meeting they nv tell tse ruey and me!! soo embarrassing la. oh man. so we went off to another table.. and then benjamin came along and we tot he was gg to be super embarrassed. apparently he's a guy, so haha. not much embarrassement. then he was at another corner.

so after a while we decided to go join him. he was quite friendly la. and quite funny. haha. and tse ruey fell down at the exact same place where i fell! haha. tt time i fell during canoe camp, then i landed on my butt, and i really saw stars la. haha. but luckily i got hui jun to help. but both of us were laughing quite hard too.

speaking of hui jun, wonder if she's feeling better. today got alot of amy guy come and attend to her, cuz she donate blood alr nv eat, then she was feeling very dizzy and giddy. haha. but the moment the army guys come she smil smile liao=p and crystal and gloria were rather high today. hee. and i think mr brown is super funny!!

its.. who else? =)

2006-08-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

haha. before i go into topic, gota tok abt smth else.. sometimes.. its like, you're sooo sure that you're correct, then in the end turns out you're wrong... like dun feel good right. haha. but its ok, everyone can get a laugh out of it=) luckily no one's angry

i realised he takes KI. but ok, not very special... but the thing is that he actually ENJOYS KI.. oh gosh. if its normal anyone, i wld sae he;s a freak, but he's him. so i think he must be quite intellect. haha. hehe.

and he's sooo cool. i cant believe he's so good in music too! he's like, wah. multi talented. there are guys where u just like to look at their faces, cuz its nice to look=) but the moment they are disfigured(choi choi) haha, i think must change target liao=)

but this got so much talent, hehe. dun think need to change le.but heard ALOT of girls like him.

and all thanks to CCB, i made a fool out of myself. he caught me pointing at him. oh gosh oh gosh!! then he got tt smile on his face.argh. so embarrassed!!!

A happy happy birthday?

2006-08-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

today was quite an exciting day for me. not tt the day was exciting, but tt i was very excited.. duno why oso. hehe. just was super duper high today=)

anyway, kudos to everyone who remembered!! you guys rock. so drum roll, im gona thank you all=)

shall name the top 5 wishers=p

1. Jing ren-thanks for tt cow and bracelet! and letting me noe how nice secret recipe's choc mud cake is=)

2. shirlyn-thanks for smsing me and remembering as early as one month b4=)

3. dave- thanks for remembering for sooo many years=)

4. raun-haha. great suggestion on onning skol, just tt im a guai kia=)

5. abel-a great "say now cuz ltr might forget" line. haha.=)

plus plus plus, sherm on friendster, every year without fail one testimonial will appear=) and wanqin and wanteng and kylie, peiying, jing han,meixuan, shufang, sharon and wang huan(great sms saving tactic=p) big thanks to shuya, wendy(even tho u sorta forgot=p), james, jessamin=)

thanks to my aunt for tt nice littel picture of a cake. hehe. and my bro for parting with his money=) and thanks mum and dad. you all are the best=)

and fangyu, for tt cute little file, and gloria, for tt "nice" card with those drawings. till now im still laughing=p and silvia for tt pretty photo frame!! Ly's hand made card, Jamie's cute card, the class's pencil case, and of cos, not forgetting BX's luncheon meat=)

and teck kuan's bluberry cheesecake!!! yum yum=D haha. food for a greedy pig like me=)

and last but not least, dillon, whom i tot forgot my bdae, but actually din=) he wanted to be the last, so he's kinda last=)

Birthdays=D

2006-08-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

my mum's bdae is exactly one week b4 mine.. so we get to celebrate 2 birthdays i one month!=) haha. bought my mum some pratical presents this year that i noe she would get to use.. one's a clothes stand, a mug with a lid, and a pouch. she was quite happy when she saw it, and i was quite happy when i saw tt she was happy=D hee hee.

full of anticipation for my birthday.. finally 16, ppl can stop calling me an IP kid=D haha. and its just like a whole new beginning=) yey. im a mature young adult!! =) Life's so full of hope. =D

An eventful week=)

2006-08-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

this week was rather fun. in a way that many many things, when you most dun expect it, it just comes..

like for monday.. i was still feeling fine on the bus to skol.. and suddenly, this huge stomachache came and i was forced to go home.. and aft that fangyu was also sick and had to go home.. hmm.. seem as everyone's falling sick all of a sudden=/

on tuesday, due to unforseen circumstances, i stayed upto 12am, which is the latest i have ever stayed on a skol day. slept rather well=) i nearly died during trng. so i decided from now on, my health shall come over "putting in my best" attitude=)

wed got pulled to study session.. cuz in the morn i heard someone saying "oei oei" so i turned arnd la. and i saw justin.. and he was saying very little ppl turning up for study session.. blah blah. and he somewhat persuaded me to go. this year's exco is more of the "pls pls, i will really appreciate it" ppl.. and rawr. sad to say this, but i fall for this kinda traps. if justion were to say "COME FOR THE SESSION LA." and ying ying lai, i will be super pissed and wun go.

but he din. he was the "pls dun let me be disappointed" kind. and i fell for it again=p so i went. for one hr only la. but i really realsie i cannot study in skol. even if must, must do work=/ and the study session was not very fulfiling.. just that when i left, justin called me to say bye. which i tink is quite rare for guys, cuz in the quiet lib, most wld wan to kip their image=p

but he just called out my name=) a very heartwarming feeling. which was quite nice.haha. b4 tt i was still thinking, haix, wasted an hr. then aft this i was thinking, mb this hr wasn so wasted la=) hehe.

and today there was the math test. quite ok i guess..tried to refrain from talking abt it so tt i wun hav to go home and say "i think i got one wrong le" haha. and i succeeded!! IH presentation was badddddd. we were all snatching to answer the qns, and i successfully managed to do so, but at the expense of others.. i feel i really shldnt have done it, bu i really duno wat i can do now.. sigh.

do miracles really happen?

i have a sad life!!!

2006-08-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

so many projects to do. so many stuff to research on. so many different ppl's schedules have to meet. so many things to study. argh. so many things. so little time!!!

rawr! cant wait for hols to come. then again. i'll have to study for tests. i simply dun understand why do i have to spend almost 15% of my life studying. sick>.< just beacuse of someone who wanted to know more a few million years ago, we have to study so much. thanks ar. erm. whoever tt guy in history was=/ if i were born then i would have tried all ways and means to stop them=(

trng on friday was fun. im beginning to look forward to trngs=) games and chit chat sessions. its a form of recreation and leisure=) i realise i can actually kick a ball arnd=)

okayy. short post. gota go do my work le>.< tata!

And..

2006-08-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

haha. let me dedicate this part to guys.. well, since i found out that guys' character can change anytime, i guess i shld just stick to purely looks and capability, ability and talent. cuz these wun chance. for the time being=)

and that drummer just fits into all there!!!! oh man. he wun the special award in the international song writting competition!!! i think. im not sure of the exact name=) anyway. he's a great drummer. damn stylo. and his sports good oso.

and today, so qiao!! i saw him at jurong!! imagine!! even all the way at jurong oso can meet him!! isn it just so qiao. anyway. i kinda shrieked abit. and a guy arnd me heard. i dun really noe which guy isit, but all i noe is that in a plit second all the guys knew and they started teasing me>.< shucks. and one of them is in the same class as him!! oh no. shush.

nvm nvm. breathe in breathe out=D

Happy Birthday!

2006-08-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

Heys, its the time of the year again! its national day!! haha. and this means 3 days of holidays=) no skol!! oh yeah=D

This is one of my best national days ever, cuz this is the first time i spend national day with my cca ppl. at first i was quite sceptical as to whether it will be fun. and oh boy. am i sre glad that i decided to go.
IT WAS SUPER FUN!!

haha. first they wanted to go ice skating. and i din really wan to go cuz i was.. actually, i oso din noe why i din wan to go. just had the "sian" feeling. and then thanks to the 39th student coucil and their national day programme, i got super hyped out and got veri high when the programme ended. so i was in a rather crazy mood. haha.

Lets check the names off: Joceyln, Christine, Amanda, Justin, Gavin, Joe, Aravin, Joshua, Aaron, Dian Xiang, Choon Boon, Yu Jia, Tse Ruey, Sharon, Chang Xi, Denise. denise came for a little while la, not very long.. yupp..

wow. typing their names out makes it seem as alot of ppl went.. but actually like not alot la. anyway, ice ckating was fun. we got to see each other fall and such. and pull stunts, and see how ppl push all the blame to the little kiddies. Joceyln, me and dian xiang din fall. But dian xiang wanted me to fall, so he collaborated wit choon boon and in the end CB fell instead. wahaha. nearly cld'n control my laughter. hee hee.

Aaron did his "gg to fall down but came back up" stunts and gosh, he can sweat in an ice skating rink 0.0, while gavin actually fell, but claimed that "the kiddie thing la!" was the real reason he fell. dian xiang din fall, but he pushed several other ppl down, and these ppl were strangers>.< including a mum and her kid! and some of us. but he was quite pro at it even tho it was his first time.

And we managed to convince them to take neoprint!!! wahaha. i feel so proud of myself. hee hee. we had quite a fun time taking the pics, which made me woner why did we(tse ruey, justin and me) spend so much effort in convincing them>.< haha. but the worst thing was tt we chose the wrong layout and a giant pic came out wit 6 small tiny pics at the bottom!! oh man. we shld've just chosen a simple one. an i wonder if they will pay meback the 10 bucks>.< haha

anyway. thanks to all of you who made my day, esp those who stayed on for the neoprints=D hopefully we'll get to go on another outing soon=)) ooh. and justin's bdae is in 30 aug. he's an aug baby! i think i noe lotsa aug babies=)

Did you hear it shattering?

2006-08-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

i always thought, if you hold on to ur dreams and never give up, ur dream will come true.. but i have come to realise they dun..

i rmb being in pri sch, where my head of discipline taught me to lead.. from then on, i told myelf, i must be like her, cuz i have the ability to.. and so i went to my sec sch brimming with hope.. council was my goal.. but 1st yr came and went.. apparently the tcher din feel i was ready.. and the 2nd yr came.. i finally had a chance to do wad i want.. but becoz of Nj, i chose to give tt up..

perhaps this is the price i have to pay.. to give up such good chances to join a completely new sch.. i lost all my chances.. i failed in NJ council, in Nj track and field 2005, and Nj track and field 2006..

am i destined to fail my whole journey in NJ? am i not supposed to achieve anything? wad did i do wrong? or rather wa did i not do right? perhaps it was just everything..

wad im glad is that ppl still care.. thanks teck kuan, for sounding me out on the phone.. and thanks JR, for being so concerned over me.. and thanks Abel, for consoling me..

but nothing can hide how upset i was.. all i noe was i was hoping.. but they crashed.. i can say "im fine".. i must say "im fine".. cuz i dowan to appear weak to others.. but i cant lie to myself.. cuz the reaction when i was alone, is the truest..

and when the results were out.. it not only confirmed one thing.. it confirmed 2.. this year i fialed to achieve.. and at that second.. i gave up..

gave up on myself this y for track.. it will be soul but no heart.. cuz i need to mend it..

and also because i broke it.. by smashing it on the ground.. cuz i rather i smash it myself, then to ait for you to break it.. i've decided to let it go.. cuz i dowan to waste my time thinking abt things tt will nv happen..

"you're but a passing cloud in my life"...

ELECTIONS!!!

2006-08-01T17:29:00.000+08:00

argh.. its the time of the year again. and its elections.. i was super jumpy over the weekend, and ystd just when i was about to hand in the form, i realised i forgot to fill in smth. and the most impt thing somemore. THE POSITION(S).

haha. and they all laughed at me, sae why i nv fill in the impt one. but nyway. im running for secretary, treasurer and quartermaster.. but they said they will shortlist. so mb i end up running wit only one post. hehe. or non at all=p well. i sure hope that wun happen=) hopefully this year i'll be successful.. =D

and my speech is super short. i have nothing to say!! and do i say one speech for one post? or one speech for all? oh man. i only prepare one leh. how how how? i reali have nothing to say!!! do i say everything i said in the election paper???

argh. im still super jumpy. like "doingg doingg". haha. owells. ooh. i prepared lots and lotsa food!! =)) so that i wun end up like last year. oh man. dun remind me of last yr =( ok anyway. this year sure sure sure wun be like last yr!!! okay, anyway. tmr, here i come!

ohhhh. wait. b4 i go. i need to say. CAN THERE EVER BE A MORE IDIOTIC PERSON THAN ME?????? I APPEARED AT THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME!! i think he must have thought i was an idiot!!! and i din even keep my cool!! oh no oh no. there goes my prince charming!!

fried ice cream? or orh nee? =)

2006-07-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

wow. its been a week.. time passes super fast la. soon i'll be taking As, and soon i'll be a wrinkly old woman=p choi choi. haha.

anyway. i realise something.. in this world, there are basically 3 types of ppl when it somes to socialising. 1. normal people=) 2. fried ice creams 3.orh nee, which is also known as yam paste

so 1. will be those cases where you both talk to one another, she looks friendly, and you 2 look at each other, then either start laughing and talk, or just talk. in both ways, you dun have any first impressions of her, just that you 2 will talk=)

number 2. wow. these are the most dangerous ones. fried ice cream. have you eaten one before? it looks like this.

it looks like just any other fried food right? hot, and oily and crispy. looks appealing=) but but but! when u bite into it, and worse, when u have sensitive teeth, oh man. you get a huge shock. its like "zingggg!!!" wah, super painful. and boy, will you get hurt.

so same goes for people. outside looks hot, inside super cold. ya, you guessed it. i was snubbed. cuz you see, im the kind of "i cant keep my mouth shut for 1 sec" person. n i just tend to keep talking. and most of the time it works. the other person just replies and we get quite a funny conversation=) but this time, wow. i thought my talking skills took a turn for the worse. his person completely just dun talk.

was kina sad la, thought i lost that talking thing. until i saw number 3. orh nee. noe how it looks like? like this:

ok. it looks like some kinda soup thats been left on the table and is no longer piping hot right. "no smoke alr. aiyo" you might think lidat=D but hey. once you try it, you realise it's as hot as me=p hehe. just joking. anyway, you shld get wad i mean. so number three is the same, has a "i dun wana talk, i just wana stone" look. then when i finally start talking, all thanks to that fried ice cream, i actually developed a phobia of talking. oh, and number 3 replies and to my surprise, starts to ask me qns! wow. haha.

so right, never ever judge a book by its cover, and never jusge food before you eat it. ooh man. im kinda hungry now. but im tired too. yawn. shall go sleep now=) ZzZZZ..

A day to remember..

2006-07-23T14:57:00.000+08:00

on wed, it was the 2006 National Track and Field finals.. i was pretty much anticipating it.. in fact.. i had been thinking of it since last wed.. but when it finally came.. how i wished this day would stay forever and ever..

firstly, this finals meant a chance for all of us to come together and cheer for a common goal.. but it also spells the final day where we would see the J2s.. after so much we have went through.. i have already regarded all of them as family.. and that day, it was like a final family gathering? haix.. on the surface i was smiling.. but i knew, once we leave, it would be quite some time b4 we come together again..

so i took a camera along=) and the throwers managed to spend some time together.. first tim see gavin carry backpack. haha he looked so guai. which is soo wrong. a piah kia with a guai look=p the councillors came late! oh man. and they kept asking us to cheer skol cheers when we wanted to cheer for those who were running.. which got most of us pretty pissed. owells.

and the girls did well for the sprints, kudos to sharon and yujia! and for 4 by 1 relay, oh man. it was the most exciting race ever! all of us were screaming our hearts out and we were sooo scared that at the finishing line, others will catch up! so when we saw them pass the finishing line first, we all screamed for joy!!! =DD and ms koh whked me pretty hard on my shoulder=p hehe. for 4 by 4, we came in third, but nevertheless, they all put in their best and i was very proud of them=D

the bad news came right after, cuz they said that we lost the third placing by 1 point. 1 point?? i was lost for words.. everyone else was also in shock.. and right then, i felt my eye welling up with tears.. having witnessed the girls team, from a 2nd placing last year, drop to a 4th placing, i just couldnt describe that feeling.. i din even have the mood to go on watching the last race..

but by the time the prizes were presented, we all sorta cooled down.. and then. IT WAS PICTURES TIME! haha. it was quite funny, cuz leon was asking us to take pictures with him, and bx and i din really wanted to. and he kept on saying "pls pls", so we decided o be nice ppl=)

we took our throws pic too! tho not everyone was here. and aaron is a lousy photographer! haha. not really lousy in skills la, but lousy in.. erm. ah! preparing us for the shot=) he was like "ok, 1,2,3!... 4,5,6" -.-lll

when we were waiting for the bus, the guys were being super sick la. they took sf's balloon, which was supposed to be a dog that gloria made for her, and made it into a duno what la. it just looked pretty sick. then they put it at justin's butt and took a pic. wah kao. ugh.

the worst thing was they made it into some animal, and said that the eyes looked like mine. so they wanted to put it next to me, take a pic and compare>.< so i ran away. and the bus chose to come at this time. i tried to squeeze my way past them, but got squeezed out. and on the bus they tried to carry ou their plan, and i grabbed bx's bag and scream and scream. haha. and i won! =D

but they still managed to do it at sharon's hse>.< ooh. and we witnessed gavin's constipated look when he tried to contain his laughter. and the best part was that he was laughin at nothing=p

dinner was fun, cuz crystal, bx and i just grabbed one whole pizza for ourselves=) then got ben and jerry's for dessert=D super nice!! after watching the videos of the races, we went off..

i'll never ever forget this big family full of warmth, and this day will always be on my mind...

skol>.<

2006-07-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

haha, by the title i tink u can guess i din really enjoy skol. but heyy. who does=) the first week was rather plain.. plus i was back to being miss "nobody knows you're here".. i guess i was just being replaced.. and i really din look forward to skol life, cuz i noe it will never be the smae again.. never so fun, excitin.. i din even noe where i belonged.. kinda sad. but well, i gota learn to survive on my own=) and i know i can do it=)

tuesday my heart was beginning to thump a little faster, cuz my nationals was on the next day.. took such a hadr time to get to sleep! =) after one whole year of hard work, i really hope to do well..

on the actual day itself, i could feel my heart wanting to jump out! and when i was finally there, i was really very nervous. all i wanted to do was my best, and i really hoped i could.. the first throw was superb!! i have never ever seen my javelin sooo close to the qualifying mark before!! haha. so i was pretty happy. until the next 2 tries. gavin always say $1 for 3 tries, but i only got one la. no fair. anyway, it was one dollar. it was alot more>.< the other 2 tries i wasted it!! cuz i simply lost count-.- super upset la.

then aaron said"nice throw"=) hah. din expect it to be him that was saying this.. apparently guys are the better comforters. last year was guanwen, this year was him. its that kind of feeling where u are sooo down, and someone gives you a hand to pull you up=D just tt this year i wasn crying=) ok, great improvement!! haha.

woots. dillon mentioned me in his blog for wishing him happy birthday!! haha. it was like, honour roll! =)

i got a new bag ystd=) hmm. starting to think when shall i carry it. shld i carry it on wed? ltr kena stepped by ppl how? my precious:) hmmm. really must consider.. and im quite happy to say that im still keeping up with my hw=) good sign! shall pat myself on my back*pat* haha.

and i saw someone whom i never ever wanted to see again today. oh man. just get out of my life. i dun ever wan to rmb u. u are a horror. GET OUT. OUT! shoot. luckily my mum din see, or she'll ask who is it and i will have to relate the whole story to her, like telling her a nightmare. if it ever happens again, im so gona show my horrid colours>.<

its him again>.<

2006-07-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

i realise that waihing iol dramas only make me feel that everything in my life should end with a fairytale ending.. which apparently will not. cuz it only happens in an idol drama. but deep down, i stil hope that now is just the phase before i find tt perfect person.

but its still kinda stupid la. cuz since almost every other guy only noe how to suan me>.< and i actually dun take much notice of them. but its always him who keeps popping into my head. when i dun see him, my mind wanders. and when i do see him, i try and pretend i dun. arghhh. im really the king of idiots man.

i really cant believe why i would notice a guy who i dun even noe very well so much?? i dun even noe if he's funny or a person who only keeps to himself, or if he's one who can open up to anyone, or simply someone who doesn't care at all. im so full of questions!!!

its just killing me trying to convince myself tt he's not who i imagined, and so. i should just dun care. arghh. its driving me crazy. as of now la. but as soon as skol starts, im gona be normal again=))

2nd week of enrichment=)

2006-07-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

this week was a rather busy week.. wasn as slack as last week=p just that i got monday off.. but hey. which student doesnt get half day off?? haha. so.. here goes:

i tot tuesday wld be bad, cuz i got pangsei-ed by ppl.. and i tot everything would be me only.. and would be super awkward cuz it was all out of skol.. but in the end it turns out to be the best day so far!! =))

floorball was with gloria and fangyu.. super fun.. and veri funny.. cuz of gloria la.. she sure bring laughter.. cuz we all laugh at her=p apparently mrs tan was saying a guy slept on her lap. but gloria sae dun have. and mrs tan said mb the guy was fantasizing=p i had a great time at floorball!!

next was tea chapter. bao and silvia were there:) again it was rather fun.. we talked quite alot.. shared wad we saw.. and went to eat.. it was thru them tt i found out tt ppl do change cuz of love. puppy love. and its smth tt even friendship cant withstand.. wow. how horrid reality is..

went back to trng and it was like, the best trng ever!! i improved with every throw! so shiok=DD

on wed we went to tour the durian, haha.which is the esplanade=) it was quite enriching! the tour guide told us lotsa stuff, like it was built from inside out, and tt the theatre and concert hall is 5cm away from the main building=) btw, there's only one theatre and one concert hall. haha
teenage bands was fun too. weiliang like know everything la! haha, and he was singing in the lt=p

thursday was jobshadowing.. rather slack.. din have much to do=) the kids were noisy as usual.. haha. if kids werent noisy, then they wouldn't be called kids right=p

friday was one of my anticipated ones.. coz i was really excited to go to a 民歌餐厅. but first there was the power 98 school invasion.. i din really enjoy the second part.. first part was quite funny though.. second part was this local rock band, ronin. i think thats how its spelled. i completely din noe them, and they said they have a bad reputation. but it was really their performance that put me off. esp the lang that the lead singer used, and he was sooo flirting with the girls in the front row acting cool. couldnt stand it. argh. i was just stoning there. haha.

民歌餐厅 was really good. i was listening all the way! if only all skol lessons were like this=) and they delievered quite a number of nice songs=) ended enrichment week on a high note!=)

never felt so ignored

2006-07-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

ystd was the first taste of bitter after 6 weeks of bliss.. after staying at home for these 6 weeks and choosing wad i want to do, no nid to carry on with everyday school life, i felt so blissful. unfortuanatley, 天下无不散之宴席, all good things must eventuall come to an end.

ystd was the first feeling of being ignored. when everyone just treat it as though i am tranparent. nobody cared about me at all. this was the kind of treatment i had been getting for so long. until the hols began. i started to realise what is happiness. but now.. i guess everything has to go back to normal.. why?.. i dun geddit.

perhaps its really me.. perhaps i should just carry on keeping quiet.. no one will even notice anyway. even the person whom im noticing perhaps just treat me as a passer-by. sad stuff. and too bad i cant do anything to change it. luckily there were still good things tt happened.

on thur, i finally confirmed that throws were really united. hehe. cuz i was waiting for shufang, then i tot they will just warm up w/o me. then right, i saw them standing there, hands on their hips. and they were like asking me to faster and stuff, and giving me tt look. haha. even tho they were supposed to be irritated, and normally i would be irritated at them for not understanding, felt super happy=DD cuz we were like one whole family alr!! haha. u guys rock!!!

then ystd, haha. hee hee. haha. i got a hug from the cutest guy i class - long! haha. cuz when i wa being ignored, at least got xiaochen and long acknowledged me. hehe. so nice right. 3 cheers for them=)) then after that when long was on the same level as me he said hi again.

him: hey ziyin! =)
me: hello! u'r o nice! never ignore me. haha
him: of cos(smiles)
me: u wana hug from me? (actually i was just saying la, like play play. who knows..)
him: ok:)

haha. and thats how i got a hug from him. yay! =DD

and after trng played badminton wit bx, and she was acting like a little kid la. haha. steal my bottle, then try and lock me in the pe room, then nv ans when i call her i the toilet. haha. so immature=p

start of enichment! =)

2006-06-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

wed went for the first enrichment activities.. quite fun la.. the first activity was On the cutting edge. ms wong showed us some music videos. it was only toay tt i found out such videos existed!! personally i du realy like them la.. cuz is like. the animation is. hmm.. how to say.. for the first one it was like a cartoon.. just tt it din realy make sense. all the rest also. wonder where she found all these videos.. haha. mb its her interest=p

next was the manicure session. mr eng's wife is a freelance manicurist! haha. yupp.. thn went to the navy museum.. just went there to see the uniform and stuff.. and oh man.

lemme tell you wad happen. sam came to join us, then when we were getting on the bus, she got up before me. then at first 4 of us mah, then plus sam, 5. so one will be alone. and since she got up first, i was left alone. actually nothing wrong la. then sam sae"ah ha. luckily i got up faster. let ziyin sit alone" =.- err. wads with that. u dun nid to say that right. well. nvm, i had a nice time anyway.

thur went back for trng. and fri second round of enrichment=) learnt qite abit about mozart! and classical music la. haha. the strings of a violin and viola is mae of cats' guts last time!! if in the olden days got animal rights association, now sure no more violin and viola=p

and another museum. this time is art. we were introduced to 8 local artists. yupp.. not too bad la. and both museum trips were good!! Cuz we were let off a lot earlier than the stated time=)) hehe. went back for trng. and can you believe it?!?! i left my shirt in he toilet!! argh. and its nt the first time le la!! irritating. why am i sooo forgetful?!?! grr. yupp.. that was first week!

its all abt YOU...

2006-06-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

and. yupp. saw him today:) it was that feeling of "so near yet so far". he was just right in front of me, yet all i could do was to look down. argh!!! why am i soooo dumb and stupid and and. argh. president of idiot society.

LUCKILY i looked up just in time to see him acknowledge me. shld be la. he nodded at me. an gave a little smile! whee! i smiled back:) haha. and THATS IT. haix. but that just set me smiling like a moron. haha. so i thought. enough of that. off to trng instead!! and stop thinking of him=)

sometimes, i just sooo hate myself!! argh. how i wish when he lie on the floor, the girl he is talking to is me.. but i just have no topics with him in common!! he does suan me.. but hey. who doesnt suan me. even the my little cousin suan me la. so, thats not counted.

i thought that since when he suan me he was quite amusing, funny, and nice, i thought he would be a nice person to talk to.. but when i finally plucked up the courage to tok to him, (thanks to you for giving me ideas, heh) he appeared aloof and unconcerned, simply saying he has nothing common with me. how hurt i was. and coz of tt i snapped at my mum.

could it be that i just noticed him, and din noe him much, and then i put my dreams onto him? hmm. this sounds funny. what i mean is that i thought he is funy, humourous, cuz in my mind,an ideal guy shld be witty. oh yes! ideals! ok. haha. rephrase. "could it be that i just noticed him, and din noe him much, and then i put my ideals onto him?"

yupp. and in real life he isn like this. perhaps im just thinking too much. thinking that he could be that prince, or that devil in my life(-->in a taiwanese drama starring mik he and rainie yang, mike he was the devil that completed rainie yang's life). but i guess he really isn. but i still cant help it if he is so noticable right!!!! haix. someone help me please>.<

school blues>.<

2006-06-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

haha. going to go back school le.. although it is gona be 2wks of enrichment, still feel the back to school blues. cant wait for another PCS gathering. super fun! how i miss them.. hmm.

tuesday was a special day! i just realised --> 20.06.2006 once in a lifetime date. haha. 06.06.06 also. but thats not a good date for christians. but well, its over:)

realised i haven been putting any pictures. so i shall put random pictures from now!! =)

last wed was our sorta first throwers lunch. it was quite fun, esp since i wasn the bull's eye of the day. hehe. shuyu was quite poor thing la. they were all using her as a targetboard. everything she sae also arrow her, suan her, diao her. haha. it was quite a funny sight. plus she kept talking abt teck kuan, sum, and shaowei, which gave them more reason to suan. actualli i din want to add on de la, but their jokes were seriously funny. so i couldnt stop laughing=p aft tt she kept quiet. oops.

on thursday, actually planned to go out wit ernest, jing han, william and shiqi to watch movie.. but in the end ernest nv go, then i oso din go, so left the 3 of them. plus another girl. they watched just my luck. saw the previews, it was quite funny. lindsay lohan was trying to dry her hair, then her hair got stuck and she yanked the hair dryer out, her hand crashed into the mirror and the whole thing burst into flames=p haha. jing han sae quite nice, haha. mb i shall get the cd, or smth=)

friday was a bad day. went for cip at city hall, the flagday for student pocket money fund thing, and i got cheated of my money. hmm. baoru and i went orchard, then got one lady donate $50!! they veri generous, alot give $2, and some gave $10. wow. 3 cheers to that lady!! who says singaporeans are not kind! erm, at least 1 is=D then somebody put in 20cents, and asked me to donate $10! i only gave $2 la. but hey, come to think of it, i dun see her approaching anybody else. smth's fishy. haix. nvm la. charity=) the bad thing was that i rushed to skol for trng, only to find out that there is no trng, and james din tell me. and josh. grrr. it is not the first time le la!!! super pissed. but well. i cant do anything. so. just wen home>.<

watched shows the whole ay and went for a run. shall talk more abt the shows in next post!! =))